Blast Your Love♥

It ends, comes another start.

2011-12-21T01:20:00.003+08:00

I yearn for a new start, because I don't know what should I feel anymore.

Fuck you. _l_ .

Where the fuck is my new beginning ?

2011-12-18T01:16:00.003+08:00

"My love for you is not enough

Because what you love is true enough

May I thought you were the only star in the sky

A machine that could understand.

Till I realized you may be the star that I could never reach

A world with no daylight

A person who would not understand the flow of tears in my eyes .

You were a rainbow after the rain

Or maybe just an illusion in my dream.

But just to let you know my love is always true" .

Starry, starry night.

2011-12-18T00:42:00.001+08:00

Vincent By Don McLean

Vincent Van Gogh shot himself when he was 37 years old, before he died he told his brother Theo "the sadness will last forever.."

'Starry, starry night

Paint your palette blue and grey

Look out on a summer's day

Wtih eyes that know the darkness in my soul

Shadows on the hills

Sketch the trees and daffodils

Catch the breeze and the winter chills

In colors on the snowy linen land

Now I understand. what you tried to say to me

And how you suffered for your sanity

And how you tried to set them free

They would not listen, they did not know

Perhaps they'll listen now

Starry, starry night

Flaming flowers that brightly braze

Swirling clouds in voilet haze

Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue

Colors changing hue

Morning fields of amber grain

Weathered faces lined in pain

As soothed beneath the artist's loving hand

Now, I understand, what you tried to say to me

And how you suffered for your sanity

And how you tried to set them free

They would not listen, they did now know how

Perhaps they'll listen now

For they could not love you

But still your love was true

And when no hope was left inside

On that starry. starry night

You took your life as lovers often do

But I could have told you, Vincent

This world was never meant for one

As beautiful as you

Starry, Starry night

Potraits hung in empty halls

Frame less heads on nameless walls

With eyes that watch the world and can't forget

Like the strangers that you've met

The ragged men in ragged clothes

The silver thorn of bloody rose

Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow

Now, I think I know what you tried to say to me

And how you suffered for your sanity

And how you tried to set them free

They would not listen, they're not listening still

Perhaps they never will".

Sadness is a thing that can't be joked about. Sadness is a thing that you cannot take lightly of.

Sadness can be a ruthless murderer, when no one can be the healer. Sadness often lead to tragedy. May sadness stop the killing.

The Art Of Getting By

2011-12-06T03:47:00.002+08:00

Teaches the art of getting by your life, and school.

More awesome then it seems in the trailer. (Y)

Cute, cute, cute.

2011-12-06T03:36:00.006+08:00

Present for you , my love :). Next time he will sing live for you.

Btw, I thought of this chinese phrase which would never fit him.

"没有那么大的头, 就不要带那么大的帽子" which means "Do not wear such a big hat if you don't have a BIG head" . HAHAHAHA . BUT HIS HEAD IS SO BIG :)

The Art Of Being Broken

2011-11-24T03:29:00.002+08:00

"You sent me a perfect pencil,

to draw a perfect drawing.

And now it is half done,

but you are taking the pencil away" .

Still Hanging On

2011-11-24T03:27:00.000+08:00

Hang On

Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You.

2011-03-28T21:44:00.006+08:00

Nothing's gonna change my love for you, and I'd blast it out to you.

B-U-S-Y . I'm gonna work my ass off this week. In the proccess of doing something very important which I haven't even started , I left less than 1 week to do it. Busy + Flu = Tired.

Mid-Year Exams are coming to find me in less than 2 months, I haven't even start revision , still slacking and crapping during lessons . Sure die ): . Stress about work and studies.

I still can't get this image out of my mind - stupid little small-sized girl vomitted out of sudden in the store I work in.

1. I was the first staff who saw it.

2. I was supposed to clean it, the mother approached me.

3. I turn and walked away (:

4. She was so freaking small sized and the amount of her vomit looked like a big bowl of porridge with brown spices/colourings. Spilled one.

5.Yeah I'm a worker . So ? Expect me to clean this shit, I nearly wanted to resigh when I saw the vomit. I'm poor, but I've still got my pride.

6. It's your own vomit, you bring it in, you bring it out. Either eat it back, or the best way is to clean your own mess. Only if you tell me the little girl's vomit were caused by our food -.- .

7. Moral of the story is , I applied for the worst job ever. I swear I would never have food industry job in future.

Money is evil, sometimes you need to clean up people's shit to earn money, fuckin pathetic.

But still - smile always, no worries (: .

Slack.

2011-03-26T22:37:00.005+08:00

Library with Belinda (: . I infer that we were slacking all the way long , this can be seen from the pictures below :). I brought my laptop, we watched stupid videos :) .

"Why are you in prison ?", "I miss you so much :(" .

Don't think dirty (:
Chubby chubby :D
Someone pee from on top, inconsiderate.

I love my hairrrrrrrr :D .

Fears.

2011-03-03T21:30:00.006+08:00

Promise me that you will never leave me. One day I'll take you to Paris.

"I push my thoughts of you so far high, till I drop down so low"

Valentines.

2011-02-28T19:51:00.006+08:00

What Happens On Valentines ( Feb 14 ) :D

This ugly idiot was my Valentine. (:
I spent $10 for this packet of expensive chocolates for that idiot. Good right? Who wants to
be my valentine next year?
We wanted to go Sakae and have our lunch. But that stingy restaurant doesn't have buffet available on that day because it was valentines , so they were afraid that the couples would eat too much (: . So we ate Shabu-Shabu .
This stupid girl took many plates of beef for fun until we got sick of it and nearly couldn't finish.

Chicken soup with a lot of beef inside :) .
Beef.
We spent our whole time flirting under the table , hahahaha :D .

My Heart Goes To You

2011-02-10T21:15:00.007+08:00

Chewing off it's head(:
Frustrated . Especially today.
Don't understand why some people look mature but they just don't grow up. As their ages grow, their maturity levels go down instead of up.
And some people just don't fucking learn their mistakes. They get old, but their mistakes never get old.
Fortunately I'm wise and smart (: .
Saw my mother tongue teacher when I was on the way home at Jurong East Interchange, I guess she saw me too , but she walked another way round. Most probably she wanted to avoid her students in her mother tongue class as she hates them cause they are silly and annoying, haha. I'm just annoying , cos mother tongue class will be boring without our annoyances :D .
I just received my first pay , heheh feel so satisfied receiving my hard earned money, first time ever in my life.I feel like watching this movie, cause it looks and sounds interesting.
I guess is about this guy and the girl, the relationship between them is between sex friends and lovers. Which is kind of silly I guess ? But still looks kind of fun to me :D .
The main reason I want to watch is because the male lead is very hot ~~~ .
Idolize him ever since I watched 'Killers' .
But I would watch it online since its M18 .
I wonder if I wear my mother's clothes and dress very old, would the cinema allow me to buy the tickets ? :D

(:

Big Blow.

2011-02-03T20:04:00.004+08:00

What are friends for ? Being idiotic together :) .

We had a date on top of the toilets cubicles (stood on top of the toilet bowl).
PS : This is how you can actually peep at the person beside your cubicle (: .

We are pros who manage to reach there :) . Recommend couples to date here.

In the end we got scolded by the janitor cos we threw toilet papers on the floor :) .

Times with you.

2011-02-03T19:32:00.003+08:00

Garfield.

New born kung fu star, Cat Lee.

Precious Moments

2011-02-03T18:40:00.012+08:00

Hey it's been too long.

Do they look like siblings? (:

He has been kidnapped and tied up, ever since then his body became out of shape.

Ahhhhhh ~~~~

Megamind's younger sister.

This fellow got beaten up as she owed me money and failed to return :) .

Creepy family potrait.

Like a G6.

Childhood days. She's a greedy bitch who hug both cats.

NC16 censored sex scene.

This is the cutest one :) .

Greeting card for you . Stop squeezing my cat -.- cb. Poor mouth :(

Why you choose him ? :( -crying voice-

M18, Discovery Channel, Sex Relationship between cat and human

Realize their heads are very big. Squeezing each other.

More craps to be continued ....

It was never too late to retrieve it back.

2010-10-23T23:00:00.003+08:00

What happens yesterday.
After school met Belinda > Imm Pepper Lunch > Garden & played cards > Toilet > Met Phyllis & Yinghui > Jurong Library > Teban > Home<3>

Pictures.

Shuffling cards.
My rat cute right ? I think this is a nice shot.

I'm touching you .

-Touches- *uh*

Lazy to post much :D . Only wanted to post the pictures.

End of post, mummy. ^.^

Trapped In A Misery

2010-10-16T12:13:00.006+08:00

Forgotten.

"The silence is tearing me apart, my world became silent when the voices shut.

Words can't express my true feelings, tears do it perfectly well.

And you're gone now, slipped away from me.

I'm left alone broken and shattered.

The world seems black and white to me.

No wise words could stop the bleeding.

I'm trapped in a forest, waiting for someone's rescue.

But I was neglected and forgotten.

I hate waiting, the feeling is scary.

I wish my memories could be erased.

I wish I could forget things easily, like how you forget me.

I think I will be trapped here forever.

Because no one listens to me, I am mute to their ears, dead in their eyes.

I wish I could just pour out my feelings to you, like how my tears fall.

But I hid the weakest side of me from you.

I want to see you.

But I wish I could just say "I'm done with you" . "

Eeeee-Ohhhhh.

2010-10-14T19:25:00.004+08:00

When you're happy like a fool, let it take you over.

Went out with Diana yesterday .

Our trip - Jurong Interchange > Bused to Chinatown & walk walk > Clarke & walk walk > Bused back to interchange .

*Laughs*

When we were busing to don't know where. We got bored and tried to take picture of our clips hahaha. Chat in the bus, laughed very hard . :D

This was when we were at this very eerie shoppind mall called 'People's Park Complex' , this shopping mall was freakingly outdated , alittle 1980's . But the desigh of the toilet

was brand new and nice. LOL ? Entrance fee was 20 cents, cheat money one .

Walked around Chinatown, had alot of fun. We spent 1 hr eating at this seafood stall , cos we were laughing & eating therefore the food could not digest properly :) .
We saw this group of primary school excursion kids and we went to disturb (: .

The tour guide said : " Because of this (whatsoever) building, makes Singapore who she is now " . I shouted : " Because of me, makes who y'all are now hahaha" . I'm a genius LOL.

Through out the whole trip, Diana was very obsessed with this ugly looking creature named 'Eee-Ohh' / 'Eeyore' . This creature is Winnie Pooh Pooh's bestfriend . Diana was very afriad that I would squeeze it, so she didn't let me touchzxzx and even dodge and hid it away from mezxzxzxzx :( . She's insane, whenever I go close to it, she would protect the Eee-Ohh thinggy as if I would eat it up.

We got bored while waiting for bus, so we made a tower.

The guy behind is my boyfriend :).

For no specific reason, Diana started strangling her 'Eee-Ohh' like an insane woman hahaha :) . And she loves this photo alot :) .

We met around 9:40 am , went home around 4:30 pm.

Had alot of fun, laughed alot, after all laughing is an exercise , good for health.

Finally I stepped out of my house and breathed dirty and polluted air :) .

This 1 whole week of holiday is a disaster. It is a week meant for Shuqun Lower Sec to meditate before receiving the shocking results of End Of Year exams :) .

End of post ^.^ .

"Lord, I pray that life will get better" .

Confusion, illusion.

2010-09-13T23:47:00.002+08:00

I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy I'm unhappy.

"I lay down on my bed, the first thing I did was cry" .

I'm really unhappy.

The roses could fade within one second.

2010-09-11T00:26:00.007+08:00

Hi babes.
Stayed at home for the whole entire day as my Science tuition was canceled.
Cos my tutor Miss.Belindahasshinyandglowylegs Wong was not free.
So I stayed at home whole day admiring my pretty face.

For the past few days, I spent my everyday studying Science at Belinda's house.
As I hired Miss.Belindahasshinyandglowylegs Wong as my science tutor for this holiday :) .

So I faced her almost everyday. It's not romantic at all. Her house got ghost , and the ghost took Hannah's memory. Ok bullshit. Touchwood.

But her house is indeed eerie.

My beloved tutor drew this. Why she thought of fries ? MacDonald fries is artificial food, cannot be digested, like eating plastic. I didn't know she loves to eat plastic, aw.

Her desires.
Sushi, fries, bubbles, History, Twitter and the don't know what thing.

Belinda said this photo looked sick. But I think it is cute leh. :)

I (L) Sakae Sushi.

Had Sakae with Belinda and Phyllis on Wednesday.

It was awesome. I don't know what's so funny about the sushi, Phyllis kept laughing while she was eating it :( . I guess the sushi in her stomach didn't digest normally.

Had a good laugh during the meal. That was the most interesting Sakae meal I've ever had ^^ .

But Belinda was seriously sick on that day. After eating over 10 plates of dishes, she felt like eating chicken rice and laksa -.- . She thinks the nicest way of eating a bowl of laksa is to eat the egg , throw away the noodles. Insane -.- .

What in the world is so good about the egg ? You tell me ?!

Anyway, must start to study like hell already.

School reopen will be very stress for everyone :(.

But I always remember this -> Pay now , play later. :)
During the Dec holidays , I'm gonna play until my head won't stop shaking :) .

Bye.

I'm determined this time round.

2010-09-02T20:29:00.003+08:00

"I will find back the happiness that I had.
I'm determined this time round.
I promise I will make it.
This time, no one is gonna pull me down.
No matter what you say, no matter what you do.
It ain't gonna affect me anymore.
I will move on, my heart will let go.
I didn't realise that I let myself down for letting you bring me down.
Yeah that's right.
What more, the best way to bring down your enemy is to prove to them that you're living happier than them.
I sumpa !"

So long, so long.

2010-08-28T01:46:00.003+08:00

If my world is going to fall apart in an obvious way, will you try to make me feel happy?

That feeling is coming back again , gosh. What should I do?

Promised myself not to let that feeling take over my actions.

But her character really disgusts me alot.

Or do I need time to calm down ? But this is not the first time, and she is

kept in the dark.

I know I shouldn't feel this way - the evil thinking, revenge, jealousy blah blah blah.

But I don't know for what reason, it took over me again and again.

Why am I so stuck in the past ?

Nothing can make me forget that horrible day.

The chains wouldn't let me go.

I've plenty of things to say, but why am I holding back?

Even to you.

Though you had once betrayed my trust for you before,

but I still have the urge to give you the truth right now.

I'm afraid that the feeling will come back again, which is beyond my control.

Because I only can talk to you about this, or rather , wish. You bitch.

You know why ? Because my cats won't reply me.

:) . You say. Can I not explode? Any ways?

'Ever since you left, no one has hugged me with love.'

Note : Don't any how guess who is it. So kaypoh for what? Typical singaporeans -.- LOL

We're in this together.

2010-08-28T01:18:00.009+08:00

Pictures Of You, Pictures Of Me.

Sun after the rain. (:

Prostitutes lingering on street, waiting for customers

to patronise them. Look like or not ? (:

Kimberly, here are your pictures.

We're both retards.

Note : We are actually very pretty girls .

-muahmuah.

I had a dream my life would be, so different from this hell I'm living.

2010-07-11T17:17:00.005+08:00

'Now life has killed the dream, I dreamed.

(I'm sorry that I've failed to make you smile. I stole your smile insted.)

Hi peeps.

Had not been updating this deadly blog for quite a long time.

Days were fun, but I was too lazy to update (: .

I've nothing to post actually.

I mean, I've said all I've got to say.

And sang all I wanted to say.

I've been singing and singing ever since the second I woke up.

Because I had too much feelings to express.

Until I've learn something - smile, no mater what happens, even if the world falls apart.

Even if I know that, things won't change, things won't go back like how it was last time.

I may not be as happy as I was.

I will continue getting hurt by people around me.

Even if the people I treasured, assume that I'm someone whom I'm not.

And it is utterly ridiculous, and it is a hurt that , I've never felt so hurt before.

Even if the whole situation makes me look like a pathetic clown.

Even if, the hurt is like a cancer, relapse or final stage.

Even if , people keep insisting that I'm someone whom I'm not.

Even I think that that's a humiliation.

Even if, the whole world is abondoning me.

Even if, poeple around me are expecting so much from me that makes me hardly breathe.

Even if, I know that I'm just a good for nothing.

Even if, I feel like just might as well die and see how many poeple will come to my funeral.

Just, smile. :)

Cos, sometimes, some things are beyond my control.

It's other people thinking, other poeple's mindset.

As long as, I know myself, what I want, and who I truly am.

Even if the whole world leave me, I think there will still be 1 or 2 left whom will stay by my side and watch me die ? HAHAHAHA.

Sometimes, I just hate that even my emotions are beyond my control.

I could control very well last time, but now, weird. It explodes easily, and that irritates me, or probaly even people around me.

I'm kind of sad, but I clearly know that things are beyond my control.

Hahahahahaha :) .

The way you looked at me, makes me feel ashamed.

2010-06-24T23:19:00.003+08:00

I thought it changed.

Until I finally realised, nothing changed, nothing's gonna change.

They don't need me, I don't need them.

Time To Grow Up.

2010-06-22T00:19:00.004+08:00

Bleah.
What to say ?
I'm kind of speechless alr.
Looking at this blog of mine, reflect the miseries that fell on me.
I saw...
I saw myself, sitting in front of the computer, very unhappy, posting a blog post, unhappy one.
The blog post was very long, full of my miseries and feelings that I wanted to express out.
Haha, that was what I always do when I was extremely ,freaking pissed off with my life and had no one to talk to - long blog post, filled with emotions and feelings.
But now, I'm kind of speechless alr.
My life is a mess.
The kind of stress is, freaking sickening.
All I can do is face it :) .
Everything will be fine.
I can overcome this.
I can win this battle :) heheheh.
Actually, after so many things happened, so much changes in my life.
I've grown up.
Though.. life was never easy for me :D .
But I've learn how to face it, not avoid.
But I still will get jealous when I see people who lead a happier life than me heheheh.
They are like the prince and princess in the family, don't know the taste of bitter, freaking annoying .
Especially for those who still think that their life sucks. I would feel like giving them a tight slap.
Ok, I'm crapping again.
Yah so, I'm trying my best to lead a happier life . :D
Ok enough, I'm tired.
ByeBye.

life is a gift from God.

Blah.

2010-06-10T22:17:00.003+08:00

Bye Biatch (: .

(See , I write big big for you :D )

( Don't cry when you come back and see this)

(But remember that I'll be cursing you

everyday hahahahahaha . )

Haha, this post was supposed to be posted out yesterday,

just that I fell asleep halfway before pressing the 'publish post' .

Ridiculous D: .

Yesterday, skipped the last day of GG day camp cos I was very very exremely tired :D , I bet I missed alot of things.

Went to Belinda's house.

Did random stuffs, went crazy, fooled around.

After that, Phyllis and me decided to leave earlier as we needed to eat D: .

We would meet Belinda at the airport to send her as she was flying to China ~~.

In the end when we reached the airport, Belinda didn't pick up her stinkish phone !@#$%^& .

We foolishly thought that she could have reached the airport already, just that she turned off her phone.

So we walked the entire Terminal 3 and Terminal 2 !@#$%^&*( .

Just to find her.

It was ridiculous.

Saw alot of bangalas, they were taking picture with a bug....

Ok, not the main point.

After that, we decided to dump her and go to Bugis to shop :D .

But at that point of time Belinda texted me.

The first thing I did was called and scolded her :D .

You know what she did ?

Phyllis was actually teaching her how to turn her phone offline when we were at her house,

as she could not on her phone on the plane.

So, she turned her phone offline, and never turn it online again -.- . _l_

She was even dumb enough to turn her phone offline while she was at home -.- .

Then I laughed in a very sacarstic way when I heard that .

And she laughed , and we both laughed -.-.

Phyllis and me waited for her for nearly 2 hours at the airport.

She thinks she very dua pai :( .

But in the end was worth it.

Got to see her one last time.

We three gone crazy at the airport for no reason, hahahahaha.

So , she flew to china ~~~~~~~~~~~ .

Belinda must be flirting with China guys now :( .

Hahahaha. Lmao.

Anyway, I will be very busy for the next few days, maybe posting tomorrow.

Bye :) .

Bullshit.

2010-05-27T15:34:00.003+08:00

Hi shit.

Haven't been updating blog for quite a long time.

I've got alot things to express.

Alot of feelings .

Somethings are too personal to post it.

Somethings I think that certain people will feel offended if I post it.

Recently, alot of things happened.

Things that could have make me fall apart.

I feel very sad.

I feel very lost.

I feel very loss.

I feel like one of my souls just flew out from the body.

These few days, I got most of my time occupied.

Hardly stayed at home.

Though I may be smiling and laughing all the time,

but deep inside my heart, I feel very helpless, stress, exhausted.

Because of the things that recently happened around me, I tend to hide myself from the outside world.

Even if I step out of my house, or hang around with human beings,

mostly was just with the same group of people, which are the certain people who I am more closer with.

It seems like I can't smile like how I was last time.

I was never happy :( .

Life was never easy for me.

Haha, I remember last time how I used to hate people who lead a happier life than me.

I thought they had happiness but they didn't feel content with their life.

Haha which is dumb.

But in fact, certain human beings don't know how to cherish things that are just right infront of them.

They often tend to reach for something that's already gone.

I often told myself "you've already cried, you breakdown, and it is time to move on" .

I wish I could.

But, I've already fell so many times, somehow I've no energy to lift myself up again.

Apparently I've no motivation to do anything.

No new pictures were taken.

Blog is so dead.

Homework undone.

I'm such a loser :(

I'm so weak :( .

I'm glad that I still have friends and lover around me.

Or not I think I would just might as well kill myself :D .

Thanks to this group of people that I often hang out with.

Uh how come I'm like an actress receiving Star Awards D: .

Uh , gross , I will never be an actress.
I think actresses are very fake, very random, typical.
Lol, what the hell am I talking about ?
Ah, whatever shit.
Going to flirt with my bed, byebye.

This was where the healing begins, this is where the healing stops.

2010-05-18T21:40:00.004+08:00

Hi babes.
This would be a really short post.
These few days, had alot of fun but I didn't post a single shit, cos I was too lazy :) .
I got my time mostly occupied haha.
But these few days, I also thought alot of things, as in , many things ran through my mind all of sudden.
Sometimes maybe no one realised, I would stare into space for quite a long time suddenly.
Cos I was thinking of lots of things, things which I didn't dare to say out.
I realised I don't dare to think or say " I love my life, I'm so happy with my life " , cos I think something bad will fall on me if I said that , and pull my down again .
Yah, I think it is because of that period of time, that period of time whereby I got abandoned by the whole entire world.
My life suddenly turned out to be so good this year, I thought I would become very miserable this year because the start of this year was not good haha.
Maybe I could say I'm happy.
But I still owe 5 hrs detention ! Fuck your mother :( .
Ok very short one, bye :) .

-

2010-04-15T19:53:00.006+08:00

Feeling the cold weather make me want to just close my eyes,

leaving all the troubles behind,

and leave this world.

While you feel that this whole thing is falling apart,

just look back and taste the memories.

Don't give up unless someone can erase all the memories.

Don't ever say "let the nature take its own course" ,

just fight for it (L) .

zzz

2010-04-14T00:26:00.001+08:00

Fuck you.
Shit you.
Eat your mother's shit.
Motherfucker.

It's pathetic.

2010-03-29T21:00:00.004+08:00

Hai.
Don't feel like posting everything today.
This would be a short one . (:
Anw, skipped school today, for the same old reason - overslept.
I didn't do it purposely, I have no intention of skipping school I just happened to oversleep haha.
Then I just peacefully spent the rest of my day ~
Anw , I think this world is very pathetic because I think there are many idiots exist in this world .
Immature, retarded, childish, idiotic, freaking stupid, motherfuckers, jerks etc.
I feel sorry for these people, pathetic. -sigh- LOL.
You must feel sorry for yourself if you're one. :D
Ok lazy post alr, bye.

=D

2010-03-26T21:59:00.004+08:00

Hello ! :D

Today is quite a peaceful day.

Woke up peacefully in the morning.

Slept for 4 hours last night so I felt very tired therefore I slept during Science lesson hahahahaha, then I got caught by teacher hahahaha -.- .

After that recess was crappy , creepy , fun , whatever.

Didn't go to canteen again , went walking around with Belinda and Kimberly D: .

Somehow for no good reason they started siting on the floor acting like beggars LOL .

Ok no doubt, they were acting like those street performers LOL. BUT THEY LOOK LIKE FOOLS LOLLLLLLOLLL! No offence :)

Haha, they are cuteeeeeeeeeee!

But of course we are not insulting any street performers , we did this just for our own entertainment<3>

Any way, skipped CCA today again :D.

Went to IMM with Kim and Belinda to eat pepper lunch ^^ .

After that walked back to interchange, said bye to Kimberly ^^ .

Went slacking again :DDDDD.

With Belinda and Yinghui again ^^

Actually I was the one who wanted to follow them because I had nothing else better to do hahaha.

Walked back to IMM > Mac > 2nd floor > 1st floor fooling around with the auto glass door while waiting for their friend > Jurong Library > Jurong Interchange > Jurong Library > Jurong Interchange > Home.

LOL , no doubt, today is really fun , laughed so much.

Yinghui and Belinda were so hilarious, like they way they fool around haha.

I realised one thing today !

Yinghui and Belinda look like twins LOLLLLL! Uh, now then realise.

Actually its because while we were at the library some stranger said they look like twins and then I looked, then I was like : "YAH!" haha.

Chat chat chat, laughed laughed laughed.

Belinda kept talking about "xxxxxx" and how irritating she is D: D: ! D:! D: ! LOL

Then one thing Belinda said about her made me laughed non-stop LOL.

Belinda said : " You know what she did ? She took 'Xxxx''s scissors and cut her leg hair during lesson time, and 'Xxxx' don't even know what she did with her scissors! That was disgusting larh ! blah blah blah ..... "

Then I was like LOLLOLLOLROFLLMAO!

Some more Belinda said until very, pissed off + irritated + disgusted, so I felt like laughing LOL.

Up till now I'm still laughing LOLLLL I CAN IMAGINE THAT GIRL WHILE SHE WAS CUTING HER BELOVED LEG HAIR, SOME MORE SHE USED THE SCISSORS THAT IS MEANT FOR PAPERS! AND THAT WAS NOT HER SCISSORS! AND THE GIRL WHO LENT HER THE SCISSORS DOESN'T EVEN KNOW WHAT SHE DID! LOLLLLL! HAHAHAH!

I mean, if people love to shave their leg hair then I have nothing to say about it , but she didn't use a shaver , she used a scissors that she borrowed from someone that is meant for papers, it is really unhygienic , disgusting, hilarious LOL!

Haha, after the crapping at library walked back to interchange again around 6:40.

Chat at the interchange , went home at 7 : 10 pm .

I think I laughed too much today, so I'm feeling very tired right now.

Kays, bye :D

Hahas.

2010-03-21T21:04:00.011+08:00

Hi, happy school reopen.

-Sigh-
School reopen, which means the beautiful days are gone. ):

Can I apply for 1 more week holiday?

Hais, crapped so much this one whole week, and suddenly school is going to reopen,

I'm so unprepared, I have not even finish my homework ):

Sad~

Nothing much to post about today, woke up at 1:35pm heheh.

Slacked at home whole day (Y).

Webcammed with Belinda D: .

The only thing is , I can see herrrrr, she can't see meeee oooooo.

I don't know what had happened to my webcam , spoiled ever since I updated my computer to windows 7. ):

Belinda : "OMG?!"

Haha, this crazy bitch didn't even know I did a screenshot xD .

LOL , hilarious.

I'm so unprepared for school, sure die ): .

Ok byebye.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THAT SEXY^_^

2010-03-18T20:23:00.021+08:00

(18/3/10) <3(Actually this post suppose to be posted before 12 am, is just that I dragged very long to post it hahahahaha)

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYY TO

THAT SEXY - JOANNE NG XUE QI

I'M OFFICIALLY 14 YEARS OLDDDDDD.

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D !!

Anw, didn't celebrate much today but still a fun day :D.

Morning online, straightaway received many birthday greetings . xD

Then went out with Charmaine againnnnn.Oh my godddddddddddddddd , I think its been 1 year ever since I see her LOLLLLL.

We lost contact during "dinosaur era" ): .

She didn't change much , still as crazy as ever xDDDDD.

Crazy lorh, almost every year of my birthday I go out with her, almost every year our meeting place is Jurong Point LOL.

But the restaurants we go are always different hahaha xD .

Went to Swensens xD. Jealous?

Ate my favourite pasta ^_^.

After lunch we walked around, said bye around 4 pm :D .

Though it was short , but IT WAS FUN :DDD.

Had a good chat with her at Swensen, but I'm sad that she didn't get choke by the food hahahahaha.

LOL JOKING :D

Crapped alot, this crazy bitch is still as crazy as ever, she's still as high as ever, and I will so get crazy when I see her, and we both got crazy. LOL Kay, I don't know what am I talking about HEHEHEHE.

I still can remember what was the last sentence she said to me when she left - "YOU AND YOUR CAT GOT AIDS ONE AH !"

LOLLLLLL!

In a funny way , but I don't know why she keep assuming that my cats looks like they have AIDS _l_.

Readers, If you're free, feel free to pass by her blog, she even wrote that I'm the owner of a cat down with AIDS ): . LOL.

But her post really make me laugh, damn hilarious! Though all the way she was insulting my cats =( .

Anw, the day before my birthday which is Wednesday, I crapped a lot that night with my darlings.

Especially with Charmiane, HEHEH.

(*)Charmaine says : <:o) HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

(*)Charmaine says : <:o) YOU LIKE TO POO POO

(*)Charmaine says : <:o) YOU LIKE CHARMAINE TOOOO

(*)Charmiane says : <:o) HAAAAPPPPPPPPYYY BIRDDDDDDDDDDDAAAAAAYYYYYY

TOOOOOOOO YOUUUUUUUUU.

LOLLLL! This was the most ridiculous birthday song I've ever seen ^_^ .

(*)Charmaine says:

"NOW THAT YOU X YEARS OLD (OMG I FORGOT YOUR AGE) ALREADY, AND

FROM WHAT ISEE YOU ALREADY GOING THROUGH PUBERTY, FALLING IN LOVE

WITH BOYS ALTHOUGH YOU < /3 IT LAST TIME, MEANS YOU HAVE TO BE MORE

MATURE ! OKAY SERIOUSLY IDK HOW MATURED YOU CAN BE CUS YOU ALREADY SO MATURE LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL . SO YAH BE HAPPY AND STAY HAPPY AND WAIT FOR ME NEXT YEAR (Y) " .

Haha, then I replied ,

(*)Imma Fool(Joanne) says:

"THANK YOU FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY WISHES, MAKE ME QUITE GANDONG -SOBS- ,

I ACTUALLY SERIOUSLY DOUBT THAT ANYONE REMEMBERS MY BIRTHDAY, WISH

YOU STILL AS CRAZY AS EVER, DONE."

Hahahahahahaha :P.

This one is by Kimberly , sexyblackass<3.

This one is by Belinda the freak. Uhh, squeeze my picture until like

this! But nice ! HEHEH.

I bet she got all those pictures from Facebook LOL. HEHEH, I know I'm smart , genius <3>

This year , I got the BIGGGESST present from ........ that is ........ DON'T TELL YOU ! xD .

Omg, i dragged for about 3 hours to post this freakin post.

Anw, thank you peeps for all the birthday greetings, though some sounds/ look idiotic LOLLLL, but I still appreciate it , y'all guysssss are so cuteeeeeee - pinch cheeks - LOLLL

Loveeeeeeee y'alllll! Bye (:

(I think y'all realise there's something wrong with the font right? Yes indeed, there's something wrong with it HAHAHAHA, I also don't know why. Bear with it, though it will hurt your eyes ^_^ )

Wtf.

2010-03-17T14:33:00.003+08:00

Dude, your words hurt me thoroughly.
I didn't even talk to you much and you said I annoys you.
I shouldn't have pressed your contact.
I shouldn't have met you in the first place.
You didn't even realise that how many times you've hurt me.
Wtf? You're the one who treats me like a fool.
Wtf did I do?
Idiot, you think I'm in a good mood? I'm not in a good mood either.
I bet you're now begging that I'll dissapear from your life.
Delete my contact please, I'm begging you.
Hahahahaha.
I beg y'all don't judge me, I'm not whinning about everything, I'm just expressing my feeling.
What do you think I can still do in a empty house?
I'm just like this, this is me.
People, stop judging about me, I'm not caring I'm not understanding, I'm evil whatever?
Do you think I'll still care up to now?
No one even bothers about me including you, so why should I still bother about you?
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Haha
My heart is aching, don't know why, seriously.
I'm scared, scared of something, but I just don't whats that.
My heart feels so uncomfortable this few days, don't know why, I think I need to see a doctor.
Lets just end with - haha.

HAHA.

2010-03-17T01:22:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUNNY HUH?

YES IT IS FUNNY.

WHAT IS SO FUNNY ABOUT?

EVERYTHING!

HAHA LET'S LAUGH.

DO YOU THINK I'M REALLY HAPPY RIGHT NOW?

MAYBE YES HAHA.

MAYBE NOT HAHA.

NOBODY WILL EVER UNDERSTAND WHY I'LL LAUGH.

NOBODY WILL EVER UNDERSTAND WHY I'LL CRY.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

FUNNY!
I WISH I AM CRAZY.

NO I AM CRAZY.

OR MAYBE NOT.

HAHAHA, I LAUGH , PEOPLE THOUGHT I'M HAPPY.

HAHAHAHA FUNNY RIGHT?

MY HEART FEELS VERY UNCOMFORTABLE RIGHT NOW AND I DON'T KNOW WHY.

HAHAHA FUNNY RIGHT?

HAHAHAHA! HEY WHY ARE YOU READING MY POST? DON'T YOU THINK YOU'RE FUNNY TOO? HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH GOD I LOVE THIS FONT.

HAHA........

I'M SO SPEECHLESS.

WHAT AM I GOING TO SAY NOW?

I WISH I CAN CRY.

HAHAHAHAHA, THE ONE READING THIS POST, YOU SURE THINKING THAT I'M A FOOL RIGHT? HAHAHAHAHA.

YES I AM.

HAHAHAHAHA.

I forgot, forgot everything.

I just wish, wish you could understand.

But no one could understand.

No bye, no hi.

=l

2010-03-15T23:45:00.002+08:00

Hai peeps.
I have many feelings to sort out.
Where should I start from?
Mum didnt come home yesterday night, why am i writing about this?
This always happens, but yesterday I was really unhappy yesterday though
I had a fun time at Sentosa.
Mum didnt come home yesterday, i saw the fckin old man walking around the house, pissed off my Diana messages, maybe I'm really down, i got a bad headache.
So i slept very early yesterday, Before i turn in, I was throwing my key again, because other than throwing my key on wall, everywhere, i can't find any way to vent my anger.
Why key? Because key can't be damaged, it only will have scratches.
I nearly breakdown yesterday, dont know why.
I hate the way mum say : "I'm not coming home tonight." , I feel that I'm being left alone.
Even when mum asked me where did I go yesterday, I replied : "why should I tell you? " , "I'm your mother." mum said.
I think there's no point of telling her because I am always alone, Its not the first time that I spent my day without her, so why should I tell her?
Gosh, how can I think this way?
Diana texted me and said Monday's trip was going to be canceled.
Actually I'm the one who texted her first, I asked her tomorrow where should we meet, but inthe end she replied me with lots of craps like "He(her father) say I yesterday wasted whole day on tv blah blah blah, O level getting nearer and nearer blah blah." "O level nearer than need study 12 hour a day or cant get good result blah blah blah ."
Not just all that and " then you go out with xxxx and xxxx lah."(I'm not that rude to say out the names), and lots of craps.
Craps and ruin my whole day mood, pissed off.
This time of incident happen too often , thats why I'm pissed off , really pissed off.
Am I being too easy for others? Thats why people can fool me and making me look like a fool. Yes, I should've make things difficult for others, or not people will just fool me around.
In addition to my bad mood, he is so weird today.
He is not like how he used to be.
Or maybe who he is in my heart is just what is just what i think of him.
This is the real side of him?
I asked him why is he to weird today because I'm concerned, because I treat him as a friend.
He just let me play guessing game.
I asked him if I am annoying or not.
He said a little annoying but not that annoying.
I feel like boxing him for what he said to me today.
But all I want is just to step one small step closer to him.
I think I'm going too deep, because I can't get use to the week without talking with him, even if just only 1 week once.
Can he just, tell me the truth?
Haha, I just realised that I'm such a fool.
Why should I be so concern of someone while that person treats me like a fool?
I also don't know what the shit am I talking about.
Lol.

Boo.

2010-03-13T15:17:00.007+08:00

Hello peeps.
Had been crapping alot since yesterday.
Wanted to post, but lazy :D .
March holidays - sleep sleep sleep, empty empty empty.
This is my first impression of holidays haha.
Maybe going out , maybe not.
Diana probaly won't be able to go out T.T .
I think this year my birthday I will be staying at home, talk to my cats.
LOL.
Ok bye, I'm not dead yet <3>

:)

2010-03-07T20:32:00.009+08:00

Hello.

Today is another boring day, slack at home whole day again since no one ask me out ): .

So i got nothing better to do, I went to browse my diaries, I actually wrote diaries when I was younger.

Then while i was reading I felt goosebumps. Hmm, how do I put this? I should say, few years later when I look back at my past, I will have a feeling that, that person who wrote those stupid and silly stuffs on the diary was not me. I will have a feeling that, I've really changed a lot, mature a lot, how to get along with people all that stuffs.

So today , maybe I was really nothing better to do , and i went thinking about my past, and looking back.

I even read my last 2 years of posts, and I found it really amazing.

Though the past few years of my life were quite miserable, but there were still people who stayed by my side, encourage me , care for me.

And, there are people who were really close with me last times, people I really cherished a lot, but now we are like strangers and we don't even talk to each other anymore, which is kind of sad.

Suddenly , i feel so lost, am I who I am? Or I am just acting like someone?

I'm not lonely, but I feel empty, i have no feeling of warmth, weird lorh, though Singapore's weather is so freaking hot haha.

Anyway let me show y'all my style of photography(: .

to be continuted.....

COOOL HUHHHHH? =D .

I named these pieces of artwork 'Gossiping'.

I'm awesome i'm artistic to take such pictures LOLLOLLOL.

Ok larh, I was just simply nothing better to do and took such cute pictures which I think

is very cool LOL.

No one will have such creative mind heheh.

HEHEHEHE.

Ok bye.

Name of artwork : 'Gossiping'

LOL :D

=O ?

2010-03-06T23:42:00.007+08:00

Hellos.

Slack at home whole day today, sleep + sleep + sleep.

To me is a good thing :D cos normally weekends are for me to sleep and rest unless got people ask me for date larh :D .

Partly because yesterday was a really tiring day - lessons time I felt like sleeping already , after school I thought I can peacefully attend CCA but in the end I was being pulled around by Kimberly and Belinda at the parade square just because they want me to skip CCA, talking about this ,

I feel like laughing because they actually spent 20 minutes dragging me around the parade square and made me look like a fool :S,

and ofcourse a little angry larh, wasteed twenty minutes of my life >=(,

but in the end I still managed to escape from their evil paws HAHA.

CCA, did foot drills again, my legs nearly broken.

And now i can't lift up my leg or not the upper part of my thigh will be very painful, that

freaking senior who trained us keep telling us to lift up our legs to 90 degrees zzz.

Actually I should have skip CCA , I should have let Belinda and Kimberly pull me away because yesterday's CCA was really tiring and boring. LOL.

Nothing much to post about today.

Bye pigs :D .

>=D

2010-03-04T19:45:00.029+08:00

Hai pigs.

Today, I can say that is a pretty peaceful day but I was late for school.

I end up 8am then reach school cos I overslept :l , got woke up by Belinda's sms D: .

So I didn't get to see Ms Yeh heheh, so I didnt get grounded! WEEE.

But I got 3 hrs detention T.T ): .

As usual, lessons were boring , I got 25/50 for Geography just pass :D .

After school went to slack with Kim and Belinda at IMM again, I kind of sick of that place alr because i almost everyday go there.

Ate pepper lunch again hehe.

Around 4 pm , Belinda said want to go home, uh how come she went home so early today ):

After that, Kim and me went to the library and slack and we were having camera war again D: .

57 photos, i think i can't post every single photo uh D: .

WEEE~ COOL RIGHT? xD

Don't be jealous muah.

Some of the photos are quite blur because we were using secondary camera which is abit blurish.

:o .

2010-03-03T19:43:00.007+08:00

Booo!
Hello.
I know my blog is dead, but I don't think is boring without pictures.
Most of the story books also don't have pictures one mah.

I just lazy to take pictures and transfer the picture from my hp and to post on blog :D .
My posts are high standard, high class, sexy, awesome, excellent, marvellous. LOL!
Anw, today I didn't go to school because I seriously don't feel like going to school ,I will feel like vomiting whenever I see the school.
So I whole day worrying about tomorrow, I will sure kena ground by Ms Yeh, sure die sure die! ):
This time round really no one can save me alr , I just hope i won't get any detention hours or suspension - no punishment ! :D But thats bullshit, that's impossible ): .
I really feel like running away from everything.
It's really not easy for a person like me to go to school everyday , because I've been running away from school ever since nursery. A joke right? School is my nightmare ever since I was 4 years old HAHA.
I tried my very best to be a normal student who goes to school every freaking day, hand in assighnment before dead line, don't break any school rules, better to be a geek/ nerd.
I don't feel like to school tomorrow too.
Because tomorrow will be a long day - morning kena ground by Ms Yeh - lessons lessons lesson will make me feel like sleeping sleeping sleeping - P.E.
So today is a boring day.
Yesterday went running around IMM with Kimberly and Belinda , went to the IMM toilet for 3 or 4 times.

Kim and Belinda were cam-whoring the pictures they took were kind of retarded but its nice larh. But the pictures they took really make me laugh LOL.

So I end up 6 plus then went home , I think i broke my record for this year xD .

Anw, I'm still worrying about tomorrow, I hope the grounding won't last too long, the punishment won't be so heavy ): .

Bye^^

^^

2010-02-28T21:51:00.002+08:00

Hello peeps.

This is my family, cute right? Don't be jealous xD .

Sian ttm, need to do 500 words reflection essay, miserable ): .

:)

2010-02-26T21:07:00.007+08:00

Hai peeps.

Uh, had not been posting blog ever since 1 month and 9 days ago.
Uh, because I really lazy to post, somehow I think posting blog is a waste of time :l
But I can't bear to delete my blog xD.
So, today is a so-so day, Geography test was not too difficult or too easy but i just hope
I can pass :D .
Didn't carry much hope on Geography, cuz I did not study much :D.
Science - hopeless no hope , sure flunk xD.
EL - Pass !
MT - Dont know yet, but heck care ^_^ .
Maths - 36/40 pro right ? Higher than Belinda by 1 mark and so she's going to treat me Starbucks HEHEH.
After that EL lesson damn unlucky ): .
Dumb me didn't know need to do homework, got 500 words reflection essay as punishment knn _l_ .
500 words eh ?
My EL composition sometimes can't even reach 150 words :l ....
I don't care alr , i'm going to write rubbish, write fairytale stories. ):
After school I thought got CCA, but i skip CCA, as in, I thought i'm skipping CCA but actually not cuz today don't even have CCA D: .
Sometimes I really find myself stupid LOL.
Then after school followed Kimberly home with Belinda , cuz I've nothing better to do, I don't feel like going home because there was not a single soul at home at that moment of time.
My brother exist like he doesn't exist :l . No offence arh.
Then, because of the hot weather , my head was like spinning and spinning . ):
After sending Kimberly home , I got nowhere to go so decided to go to IMM .
Uh there was where the funny thing happens.
It was when the bus reached the interchange , then I felt like pressing the bell just for fun , cuz i like to do it xD .
But i did not, I think it was Belinda who pressed it but I thought it was not fun enough,
so i want to try pressing the handicap bell LOL.
In the end i really pressed it but i really didn't expect the handicap bell sound would be different from the normal bell.
The normal bell is - ding dong. Just 2 sound.
The handicap bell - deh deh deh deh.. Some more the sound last more longer than the normal bell,
so almost everyone in the bus was looking at 2 of us , damn embarrassing LOL. BUT IT WAS FUN AND I WILL TRY AGAIN FOR SURE :D LOLLOL.
But it was not really my fault, Belinda actually tried using her elbow(which is retarded) to press the handicap bell but she didn't manage to press it , so I saw her desired of pressing the bell , then i'm kind enough to help her . :D ^^
So I was like - LOLOLLOLOLLOL! Haha.
Then after that we went to IMM and slack for awhile only, ate pepper lunch , I was actually playing with the pepper lunch rice cuz I put all the cheese into my rice, then the rice was like damn sticky like glue and I found it was quite fun to play with the sticky rice LOL . Pervert >:l . LOL
I think we went to the garden after that, taking pictures? LOL. No lah, sightseeing! LOL
Then after that we went to the toilet for sightseeing :D . Belinda was acting retarded by taking picture of the mini toilet bowl that is meant for kids >:l -.- .
Before heading back to Jurong East Interchange, we went to mini toons , Belinda bought sweets and I seriously think that her sweets look alot like dog food LOL.
And finally i'm going home, while I was in the bus I took a picutre.

Cool right? Guess what? It was a bus ticket, I folded it :D .

Uh.. I finally update blog !

Ok bye. :)

=l

2010-01-17T19:33:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps.
Blog so dead hais.
Recently im so sick of everything, im sick of talking,
im not as hyper as 2009 D: .
Dont know why.
Maybe i think my words will not be heard, cause dont know why recently so many people like to interupt me when im talking, spoil my confidence :( .
I seriously hate those idiots who interupt whenever im talking to somebody, just because they talk louder and interupt me, and my words will not be heard.
Didn't they know this is very rude ? I feel like telling them , but i heck care , just curse them behind their backs >:D .
Maybe i talk very soft ? Or maybe what i said was very lame ? HOw the hell would i know, so i might as well dont talk better.
Just thinking of their idiot faces made me feel very irritated. What they want ? Gain attention ? zzzz
This year, i go to school, waiting for recess and school ends.
Because, i dont want to stay in my class, because i dont really like my class, this year's class damn freaking boring D: .
This year, i feel like im so invsible, dont know why haha.
Lazy post more , Bye~

=l

2010-01-01T19:35:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year peeps,
2010, would it really be a good year for me ?
At first i really have hopes on 2010 that it would be a better year, but things infront of my eyes keep telling me that 2010 gonna be a better year, when is all this irritating stuffs going to end ? Fricken pisssssed.
Anw, recently knew that Boys Like Girls is coming to Singapore for a concert woo hooooooooooooooooo, but ? The problem is i must find at least one person to tag along or not i will sure get lost D: , and i don't want to be that miserable ; even concert also must go alone wtf ? -.-
Boys Like Girls Concert at Resorts World Sentosa 28 Jan ~~~~~~
Anybody interested ? :o
Btw i've been coughing and sneezing since Tues or Wed , -sigh-.
Hope i can go to school on the first day of school D: .
Uh kays byebye.

=l

2009-12-27T02:45:00.002+08:00

Hello peeps,

holiday life is extremely boring.

Went to Plaza Singapura just to see Jay Chou and Lin Chi Ling face for a few minutes, and got squeezed by crazy people and sickos few hours zzzz wth ?

I swear i wont go to see those types of popular celebrities again, being squeezed by their crazy fans and made myself feel so dirty after that lol.

Except those celebrities i really like.

So, until now i still dont know when i need to go back to school for that bloody programme zzz?

Heck care lo since no one inform me when to go back then just dont go back D: is school fault not my fault HEHE.

Anyway, who really cares about it ? LOL

Recently i was wondering why so many of my friends like to go to KL zzz, good lah everyone dump me in SG let me rot alone PRO!

Hais. Boring to the max!
What to say ?

zzz

Recently chatted with yanjun and she said mr.ng said this year Sec 1 volleyball girls next year NA stream will mostly all be in the same class hmm? I also don't really understand wat she's talking about but she just said what volleyball people will be in the same class next year Sec 2 blah blah ?

But dont know why when i heard she said that i was like WTF ?

That means if i got into same class as yanjun that means i have a chance to be in the same with those b__ , i mean people i dont like ?

Aiya dont know lah , but i still can't wait for next year to see how many future-shuqun-gangsters/ gangsters are going to join our school lol , i'm kind of insulting WOOPS? LOL
But i must accept the fast that i'm studying in a gangster school D: .
Seriously, when i told people i'm from infamous SQSS , their first impression to that school is "Oh ! that gangster school." then i will be like " Agreed." LOL!
Anyway i'm quite prepared for school already :D:D .
I realise that this whole year i'm thinking of what i saw on the magazine last year, they magazine said next year i will be unlucky :O ? Choy ! Touchwood(thats what i said to myself lol)
Hope not lol.
Don't know why these few days i'm so irritated with facebook, once enter facebook i feel irritated already LOL.
-Sigh- since nothing to update about then i write crap lo.
Sian to the max!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay byebye ^_^

_l_

2009-12-15T02:13:00.003+08:00

Hi hunks and babes.
Hais... my blog is really dead.
My Facebook is also dead.
My Friendster is in the coffin~
My Msn is active.
The reason i dont update is because my holiday life is extremely boring~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Mostly stay at home and do nothing.
2 WEEKS TO SCH REOPEN WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~
But i feel that im so unprepared for next year ~
I havent buy books yet.
I have not buy new shoe yet.
I have not cut my hair yet.
I have not pierce my ears yet.
Hais -.-
Talking abt next year, actually also quite boring.
If Diana and Vaish transfer school , it will make my school life more boring D;
If i got into same class with those bitches in my school (not to mention the names :D) then i go jump off from the building ~
If i cant change my CCA , GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD MY GODDDDDDDDD SIIANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN D: seriously i rather quit GG lol.
Talking abt this stupid CCA, i want to change cuz everytime i attend this CCA i seriously feel very miserable , and think myself really look stupid, and i would always feel that "gosh why i am here ?!?!?!?!" , cuz thats really not i want and i don't really like the CCA D: but i dont have a valid reason to change my CCAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA T.T
I only can think of that CCA really doesn't suit me , thats not my style ~
I dont want my secondary school life end with this kind of memories T.T
Ok so i asked diana what valid reason to give then she said " cause the CCA many stupid looking and lame people, and they keep doing lots of lame stuffs." and "the people there look like down syndrome kids."
Then i was like wtf !@#$%^&*()O LOL what kind of valid reason is this?!
Btw those 2 phrase is DIANA say one not me <3
Ofcourse we were just joking , no offence ^.^
Hais... so boring boring boring boring boring.
I kinda envy busy people now LOL!
17 days to school reopen....
Actually also boring.
AIYA EVERYTHING BORINGGGGGGGG.
Ok byebye.

~

2009-11-11T16:01:00.003+08:00

Babeh.

2009 is a really amazing year.

Unexpected things.

Unexpected people.

Unexpected conflicts.

Unexpected programme.

Really many many unexpected stuffs.

Quite a fun year lah.

Though there are something that i really hate it now, but they are still memories that i treasure alot.

The memories that maybe whole world had forgotten it already,but I will remember it until the day i die =P

Is this year that brought me up after 2 years of loneliness and tears.

Watching the happy moments flies TT .

I really hate the feeling of missing.

I miss the days, that will never be back again.

I hate to say "bye-bye" , can i repeat the days again?

The happy days keep playing in my mind like a movie.

I feel like repeating this whole year again lol.

Because i dont believe next year will be a good year for me =P .

One bloody wrong choice, made me can't change school.

And i dont even know if i can change my bloody cca or not.

Too bad but i will really really work hard next year.

No matter what i do, those days won't come back, next year won't be as fun as this year.

Im that type of person that is always stuck in the past , nothing can change me =P .

Holiday nothing to do mah boring, keep thinking those happy moments of 2009.

Byebye~

=D

2009-11-06T22:03:00.011+08:00

HI babeh ~
----------Yesterday----------------06/11/09
Slept at 3 am yesterday, yesterday night.
So this morning damn freakin tired ~
Whole day head spinning ~
Then, today reached class at 8 am, wanted to have a joke with the babes again then i went to bang the door , didn't realise the trainer andrea is already inside ~ then i was like wooooooops.
Any ways today is the last session of the programme sad ~
think december dont know when we still need to come back o.o . (the really last 3 days TT)
Candice and leroy did not come cuz one sick until going to die D: jk , one too busy, think so ?
So , first three hours andrea talk talk talk ~ taught about this word call "believe".
Then asked us to remember the 30 word list, read the whole thing using 12 seconds , can't make it then please get out of the class(in the end ofcourse didn't really chase us out D: ) then we all were like wth ?
While i was remembering and trying to read it using 12 seconds i nearly go crazy kay -.-
Dont know scolded how many F word lol.
After that ofcourse i didnt make it lah, 18 seconds ^.^
Second chance too kan chiong then 31 seconds ^.^
lmao.
Quite interesting D:
Kept smiling and laughing until face cramp and more headache lmao.
Then the closing ceremony, we are supposed to write 4 things in our journal , and make a speech infront of teachers D: .
- How I feel before the programme
-How I feel after the programme
-Things I comit to do from now on
-Greatest thing that i am proud of myself.
After that only our form teachers 3 of them came for the closing ceremony, i thought only the DMs will be coming D: .
Then andrea talked to our teachers blah blah blah about us , and how much we've grown blah blah etc.
Then she suddenly talked about the last time we had low self-esteem blah blah ~
Then she said"blah blah , they mentioned about they hated some part of their bodies, like big thighs and small eyes blah blah." something like that
Then the other four were laughing and looking at me then i was like wth ? LOL what do you mean by this? LOL? of course they were just fooling around D: .
So, after that the speech, i damn scared one D: , cuz got teachers but still managed to say out lah.
After that we went around shaking hands , and giving "who made a difference in your life" ribbons , and receiving certificates from andrea blah blah ~ .
Had a quite fun day.
But this is the so called last session T.T i will miss the everything of this programme until die kay.
LOL exaggerated.
But watching this interesting journey going to end T.T bad ~

But this whole thing is really a cool thing, first when i saw them i thought that is no difference from the stupid-bitchy-counsellor from my former primary school talking crap D: .
Nothing is cooler then this programme except my mother D: .
I really learned alot and changed my mind alot.
But this word wont dissapear from my mind - "sian" .
lmao.
Cuz holiday still left 6 week SIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN!
Such long holiday dont know for what so bloody boring nothing to do T.T
Intend to read my science tb over the holidays , cuz i found that i actually quite interested in science but just lazy to read D: .
But then , feel very sian cuz watching the days past by, watching the time flies away, and I cant do anything , just let the happy moments fly away, bad ~~~~
Next year's june will not look the same, next year's september and november will not look the same.
Though i've changed but im still a veli emo person. ^.^
Bad~~
Cuz holiday nothing to do i will just think here think there think everything~

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

At first i thought that the programme's name look stupid LOL,

born-to-win lmao.

SWEEEEEEET~ ofcourse is not love letter lar D: .

Sort of farewell letter sad~

Censored the writings HEHE pro right ~

Because is very unrespectful to expose D: .

Dont know want to give this ribbons to who o.o

Sigh~ damn boring.

Buhbye~

bahhh~

2009-11-03T17:25:00.002+08:00

Hi.
Today quite a boring day.
Woke up at 6:39 damn fckin tired.
Reached school at 7:49
Reached there thought will saw everybody,
but then im the first to reach again D: .
I THOUGHT they all late today.
In the end only vithya came, then i was like wtf -.-
At first they all say everyday gather at that bloody classroom at 7:45 , after that keep late and after that dont even bother to come knn.
Kind of dissapointed la, at the same time dont know why i go so early for what , or i dont even know go for what lol.
I had learned all i need to learn already, so i just took it as holiday nothing to do then go D:
Then the trainer damn upset with them D:
So, whole day only vithya and me, then it was like so empty.
Spent almost the whole lesson watching "freedom writers" more feel like sleeping.
It is a interesting movie , but dont know why i felt like sleeping , maybe only 2 person i can feel the emptiness inside my heart D:
After that, 11am , the lesson should be finishing already, but spent rest of the time saying the moral of the movie , life blah blah blah blah ~?
then wrote letters for that three absent girls .
After that keep seeing diana's head popping out from the door's small piece of glass.
Yeah, she's waiting for me, thn the trainer saw thn even wanted to invite her in lmao.
Today so boringgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.
Sian tomorrow i also dont want to go already T.T
I scared only me will turn up TT
Extremely tired now , buhbye ~

blah~

2009-10-26T19:17:00.003+08:00

Hi,
Dont know what to write hmmm.
Ok im damn bloody boring now ~
Today? nothing to post abt D:
Today went to school , whole day was at the programme thinnggy,
i thought is only 8am to 11am and i thought i get to know my all subject marks today T.T.
Didnt even go back to class o.o .
Im quite okay with that lah , cuz no need to see bitches , monkeys and disgusting faces.
So, sian holidays are coming, hated my holidays sooooo boringgggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.
Stuff at home again lo.
I want to change school next yearrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
DOnt wnat to see those pathetic faces anymore.
Must see results first lo T.T
Kay so, just now went to see my older posts from 2007.
Hmm, what could i say?
Whenever i saw those posts , i will feel very confuse.... hmmm a complicated feeling in other words , indescribable.
There are some times , when i saw, i will be like " o.o my life was that miserable last time? " , or there was sometimes , "my god i had such a happy day ? i had such a awfully good friend?" .
Seriously , if u say friends right, i will prefer the old than the new, until now , i seriously still miss them sial though they may are having their new life and forgot me alr ~
And recently i was talking about the programme and the camp, then i was telling the whole world that this programme helps me alot i've finally found my self, have more hopes in life , positive , blah blah blah blah?
But, is someone ask me right :"if you have 2 choices now - naturally death - continue living in this world, which one will you choose?".
I will probably choose naturally death , because hmmmm .....
Why? Life is sooooo tiredddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.
Ya i admit im the type of person that mostly run away from problems HEHEHE.
But i wont comit suicide la , such stupid action , damn painful.
But now right, i will just laugh and say : "haha what can i do ? TOO BAD LOR !" , ya seriously , too bad lor ?
Then when i see my family and compare to others , i will just say : "haha what can i do ? TOO BAD THEN =D."
And then continue with my life until the day i die ~~~~~.
Fight for own dream until the day i die ~
Live the life to the fullest until the die i die ~~~~~~
Fight for person i love until the day i die ~~~~~
And then i found that most of the time i smile and laugh is because something is funny LOL ==
I VERY CUTE SIAAAAA~~~~~~~
*PINCH CHEEKS*
STUPID LOL.
Ok buhbye ~

blah~

2009-10-24T21:45:00.002+08:00

babehs.
Can post alr~
hmmm, actually want to post about the camp but lazy~~
Cuz if i post it will be dam long and dont know my computer will hang or not D: .
Talk about the camp, i never regret about going to the camp.
Because now right, i finally found myself and what i want to do.
Countless of thanks to the trainers~
So, my arm now damn fucking pain T.T.
Because?
Last day of camp , the trainers made each of us stand infront of of a mirror (each of us had a mirror) then, ask us to use both hands 90 degrees holding on to a paper that we had write our goals on it.
And we must focus on the paper, like how we focus on our goals and not be distracted.
They ask us to keep on to the pose for as long as we can.
I was thinking that, maybe they wanted to let us know how tired and hard to hold on to our dreams and not being distracted by other stuffs in our lives.
So after that of course they wont let us so "comfortable" doing that pose , they kept on distracting us with do kinds of stupid stuffs , some be devil , some be the ones to encourage us , but all they do is only : DISTRACT.
Thn i remembered that , one act as Ris Low that idiot model and then walk here walk there , then theres one keep using sharp words and provoke people, one went around wtih beverages etc.
Then i was like keep being distracted , but i manage to keep holding la, cuz some of the times i was using my breast to support my arms HEHE.
Then there is one trainer come and push me, forget it, even tear my paper T.T .
While she is pushing and tearing my paper that time right, actually i was really scared sia, scared not a single bits left then no need to do anything liao, and wondering when she will stop.
So heng still left some lo.
I think , it is same as life what, there always have idiots, bitches, extremely disgusting people who want to destroy our dreams and life.
So we hold for it for 1 hr, in between like only haziqa and me most calm ? Dont know why there are people who cried like die parents, fainted liying on the floor and cried , vomited and cry, but after that they all mangaged to stand up and hold again.
Then i was like so exaggerated ? Cry like siao for what lol.
Realy that pain meh? I can say yes la because my arms pain like bein poked 100 times.
First day still okay sia , today when i woke up i was like wtf wtf wth damn pain,
even i scratch my back my arms also very pain T.T.
Though is really damn fcukin pain but this is really a good experience, i cant believe i hold it for 1 hr , i thought only 20 mins i cant stand alr.
Because last time i was a person that everything can't be bothered , not serious, even girl guides marching i cant even stand straight, 10 seconds i started moving alr.
So, this camp is really meaningful , and made me found my self and knowing what i really want to do with my life.
Last time i was like "study for? , why are we being borned in this world and face so many problems and work until die and reborn again and repeat the same process and die again".
I did not know study for what ? i only know is for future , but future what? future to sweep orchard road street? Born in this world to face disgusting people and bitches why ?
But now i know how to focus on good points and what to do.
To think in a positive way,
but im still abit confused cuz i'm thinking about next year, i want to change school i want to change my CCA but how?
Maybe i'm scared lo , maybe i dont have the courage to change.
But if my grades are 75% i 100% will change school one.
Hmm so, finally one thing im proud of myself, is i am willing to change. hehe
But im extremely tired now and my arms still extremely painful.
So , i can post more because the camp was like so fuuun , countless of fun many things happened.
And countless of thanks to the trainers~
But i found that im still abit lazy, know how long i have been spending my time posting this post?
1 hr & 30 minutes.
lol.
Ok i cant stand alr need to sleep buhbye ~

zzz..

2009-09-15T23:09:00.002+08:00

Hi, not having so much fun today.
Early in the morning , gundoo me forgot to off silent mode of my hp so 6:48 then woke up , so sure late.
Took the taxi, taxi driver told me he dont know how to go to jurong east st 21 then i was like T.T going to late, then after that luckily i remember the road then told him how to go.
Reached school at around 6:34 , didnt know bloody front gate was locked, i was like "wth ? need walk one big round ?" , why must they bloody go close the front gate ? for me if i late i still need to walk very long from my bustop sia , walao fck? Whole school so inconsiderate one nb.
Even canteen auntie VERY VERY EXTREMELY BETTER THEN THEM , she let me in if not i will get late slip then got bloody waste time detention , and need walk one big round then end up i sure will get 3 hrs detention.
Thank you to that auntie , she really so good sial , some people studied so much but brains full of germs and so bloody noob/ stupid inconsiderate.
Oh ya you know what ? We had a new NICE NICE canteen with car park texture floor that if you fall down u will just straight away broke your hands and legs , creative canteen built in with 2 tall basket ball nets and students must use it for 1 year and 3 months.
Yeah so is a temporally canteen with built in basket ball nets , COOL RIGHT ?! Love their "creativity" sooooo much.
So lessons are boring , FT period miss fang did changes to the seating arrangements , and im unhappy with it =D
At first when she showed us the bloody seating arrangement, i straight away saw both Ys ( bitch no.2 and another Y) just seating beside each other i was like what the fuck ?
Ok , i undertsand she changed the seats and seprate the friends cruelly beacause she dont want the class to be noisy, but why the quiet ones like jingyi and alvin also need to seperate zz ? Or even haziqah and rab ? I mean, i saw the siting arrangement then i was like " walao need to seperate until so far from each other?"
She seperate those monkeys ok la , but why the quite ones also need seperate until SO FARRRRR?
Even if i assume that those are most noisiest one in class whole class is very noisy blah blah ?
But why those who are close to miss fang and boot lick her get privileges ?
I mean, i heck care where i sit , but stupid idiot i straight away saw that both bitches is siting just beside each other , just because that Y no. 1 is very close to miss fang , then keep pang seh her , so miss fang changed the seats? because both bitches are very close now.
Miss fang, u think what ? whole class act like monkeys and noisy but they dont ? we will talk and they dont ? U think what ? they dumb issit or phisically and mentally retarded ? zzzz
I know u very close to Yx but u play bias no need to play until so obvious one right gundoo ?
Yah i scold my own form teacher gundoo because as a teacher she shouldnt be biased to anyone right ?
And i vaish, diana , me at first was seperated quite far away, if not we go beg that Miss.Liketoplaybias, she bloody hell wont change our seats near each other.
And why she show the seating arrangemet already, then why straightaway just simply change at many seats of many people just at that few minutes?
I just unhappy that why she play bias play until so obvious as i stragiht away can see both bitches are just siting RIGHT BESIDE EACH OTHER , and we 3 got seperate bloody hell far from each other knnb.
Why miss.fang so easily get infleunce by that yixin.
After that after assembly we did went to confront her why she is so bias , then she just act like want to run away from our question ( ibetsheisguilty=D) and just said " i will change the seats tmr" , then i was like ,there is no point what , at first u already shows that u are a biased teacher or not at first u wont make them together.
Then i was like WHY WHY WHY ? KAN NI NA BU ?
MFCCB. :)
Because im going to open my blog so, too rough vulgarities i use short form hehe .
Or not say what i cyber-bullying scold people on blog , YA LA Y LA i cyberbully teacher on blog happy ? lmao LOL!
NOt only this changing seats thing prove that she is bias.
Early in the morning i saw vaish talking to miss.fang, then i knew is talking about that bloody bitch incident, thn ?
Miss. fang still say our side is wrong what scold people on blog, what diana's blog did offend people I PUII !
Wtf ? Is they come and offend diana eh ? Is they nothing better to do , hopeless bitch went to spam diana's blog and wrote what go "geylang be prositude" , why u dont say is their words offended diana ? u bloody biased teacher. And why do u still need to ask anything from us ? At first we thought our facts will win , but ?And we said the facts for thousand times and the brainless people STILL DONT FUCKING UNDERSTAND A SINGLE WORD OF OURS. Even u also already thought that we are wrong in the frist place what , then keep your bias , and dont ask anything from any of us again noob?
Why u dont ask those bastards, son of a bitch , bitches , bulldogs come and spam diana's blog with nasty comments at first ? miss fang , i wonder what if people scold u "go geylang be prositude" (example) what will u do ? And why dont u ask those dogs why they are so keen to get scolding and insulting from diana and us ?
And i heard that u asked that bloody bitch no.2 why she dont talk to diana and she said " diana dont talk to me and i dont talk to her lo" and " dont know dont know" , eh bitch no.2 can u dont be so bloody stupid and get some facts ? I mean , she just said dont know dont know every thing dont know then she is not wrong alrd ? Miss fang , u keep saying diana cyber bully her BLAH BLAH ? Just because wehad many things to say and get many facts and wanted to waste our saliva talk to brainless people and we are wrong ? Just because we dont bloody shit act pitiful act like a mentally-retarded-get-bullied-by-people-kid then we are wrong ? Seems like we are like secondary students cyber-bullying a primary school kid zzz .
Just because we dont have people siding us then our facts will not be granted ?
Why the world is full of darkness, why i have met a bloody bitch just similar as my bloody f_th_r. ?
Who is going to side diana or help her when her blog get spam ?
Who is go to help her when she get scolded by those nothing better to do people ?
Who is going to help her when she got threaten ?
Who is going to help her when almost everybody blamed her ?
Who is going to help her when she is abit frighten because bloody idiots threaten her ?
People only knew how to bias and see everything from outside.
Just like i said, im not sad, im just dissapointed.
Because i had heard and gone through it at school pervious times.
Sometimes, nobody can help u , u must go through it all by yourselves , u must face bloody idiots all by yourselves.
Not just in school outside also .
Btw, just now, went to tution i started to think, "i really can do it? every tuesday need to face bloody old hag, i really can have good results , no , im so bloody hell stupid and unlucky."
I acted like a retarded girl , standing at the road of nowhere.
Does this world really have hopes ?
People said, the best way of revenge to your enemy is be happy, but sometimes i really cant, because everythng goes wrong in my life ; studies, family, school etc.
I havent even do my maths hw yet, because i dont know how to do i really cnat figure out, i thought it will be done at tution but idiot mr.wong want me to do form the basics, kind of wasting time.
He always thought that i am stupid i dont have confidence, but he is the one had always been spoiling my confidence since the start of the tution ZZZZZ.
Lost hopes for maths T.T
Ok , until here byebye , i go orh orh , do sweet dreams , la la lands, forget about bloody idiots, just sleep.

.

2009-08-29T20:13:00.004+08:00

hewyanjun@hotmail.com sent 28/8/2009 7:50 PM:ok
hewyanjun@hotmail.com sent 28/8/2009 7:50 PM:fine i still treat u as fren then i talk 2 u from now i also dont talk 2 u le
hewyanjun@hotmail.com sent 28/8/2009 7:51 PM:u take care of u self
hewyanjun@hotmail.com sent 28/8/2009 7:51 PM:i cannot stand u le
hewyanjun@hotmail.com sent 28/8/2009 7:51 PM:is diana in the morining dont wan 2 talk 2 me first so fine i dont talk also
hewyanjun@hotmail.com sent 28/8/2009 7:52 PM:if u dont wan me 2 touch u e dict then tell la no big deal
Joanne says:u bitch
Joanne says:i really cant stand u also
Joanne says:before this incident
Joanne says:i already started to hate your face already
Joanne says:i cant say that i am a good friend to all my friends throghout this 13 years.
Joanne says:but in this year
Joanne says:i hope i had not met you from now
Joanne says:u have already changed so muchJ
Joanne says:OKAY U BITCH
Joanne says:SOMEBODY HAD ALREADY
Joanne says:STEPPED ON MY BOMB
Joanne says:THE BITCHES ALREADY GET ONTO MY NERVES
Joanne says:FIRSTJoanne says:I REALLY DONT WANT TO SAY.
Joanne says:U HAD CHANGED TO THAT TYPE OF PERSON THAT I REALLY HATE IT
Joanne says:FROM THIS INCIDENT I CAN SEE THAT
Joanne says:U DONT NEED US AS FRIENDS ANYMROE
Joanne says:U ALREADY HATE THAT BLOODY BITCH AND BF AND THOSE VOLLYBALL BITCH.
Joanne says:I NOW CAN TELL U
Joanne says: U ARE "POPULAR" AND HAD MANY FRIENDS THEN U DONT COME TO US
Joanne says:AS FOR ME
Joanne says:I ALREADY FEDUP OF PEOPLE LIKE U
Joanne says:WHO STOLE AWAY OTHER PEOPLE HAPPINESS AND LAUGHTER
Joanne says:NOW I CAN SAY.
Joanne says:I CAN LIVE ON MY OWN I DONT NEED ANY FRIENDS
Joanne says:I CAN SURVIVE
Joanne says:I NEED MONEY I DONT NEED FRIENDS
Joanne says:I TRIED TO BE A ENTERTAINERJoanne says:TO BE POPULARJoanne says:BUT
Joanne says:I FOUND I REALLY HATE IT
Joanne says:BECAUSE LAST TIME IM DESPERATED TO HAVE FRIENDS BECAUSE I REALLY CANT STAND LONELINEES AND IT STARTED FROM 2007 JUST BECAUSE OF MY BIG MISTAKE.
Joanne says:U ONCE TOLD ME "I HAD MANY FRIENDS HUH"Joanne says:ACTAULLY I WAS LIKE SO?
Joanne says:"U GO TO YOUR FRIENDS LA JUST KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT OFF ME.
Joanne says:AND DONT TALK TO ME
Joanne says:U THINK EVERYBODY REALLY NEEDS U SO MUCH?Joanne says:I REALY CANT STAND YOUR BLOODY FACE
Joanne says:WHAT EXACTKLY YIXIN AND YOUR VOLLEYBALLERS TALKED TO U ABOUT THAT INCIDENT?
Joanne says:U HAVE CHANGED SO MUCHJoanne says:NOT BECAUSE OF ANYTHING Joanne says:IS U HAVE CHANGEDJoanne says:TOTALLY CHANGEDJoanne says:AND ALREADY GET USED TO IT
Joanne says:U KEEP SAYING THAT OTHER PEOPLE BETRAYED UJoanne says:BUT?Joanne says:U NEVER EVEN REFELCT URSELF.
Joanne says:THERE IS ONE SONG I REALLY LIKED
Joanne says:IN BETWEEN THERE IS A LYRICS.
Joanne says:"AND YOU NEVER LEARNED A GOD DAMNED THING"
Joanne says:U ASKED ME NOT TO TELL ANYBODY ABOUT THIS FCKIN CHILDISH INCIDENT
Joanne says:BUT U ?
Joanne says:U DONT EVEN RESPECTED VAISH AND DIANA
Joanne says:U ALMOST TOLD THE WHOLE WORLD ABOUT IT
Joanne says:WANT UI GIVE U A SUPRISE?
Joanne says:Somebody's cousin: I seriously hope that you will change. Like,at least, not write your post in such an unpleasant and disturbing way? ok? This aren't spamming . Bye. 28 Aug 09, 21:07Somebody's cousin: Its obnoxious for u to write out those offensive and hurtful text on Your blog,It mayb be your blog,but others still view it right !? 28 Aug 09, 21:05
Somebody's cousin: Judging by your blog post
Joanne says:THIS IS WHAT I SAW
Joanne says:U GUESS AT WHERE?
Joanne says:DIANA'S TAG BOXJ
oanne says:U DONT EVEN RESPECT HER.
Joanne says:U TOLD THE HWOLE WORLD
Joanne says:AND HER TAG BOX GET SPAM BY YOUR "MANYMANYFIRENDS"
Joanne says:what u and your friend want to prove?J
oanne says:prove that u all can still other's people laughter and happiness?
Joanne says:NO U CANT
Joanne says:IN YOUR MIND
Joanne says:U ALREADY DONT TAKE US AND FRIENDS ALREADY.J
oanne says:BTWJ
oanne says:BY THE WAY ?
Joanne says:ZZZ
Joanne says:I BET U KNOW WHAT KIND OF PERSON I AMJoanne says:I NOT THAT UNREASONABLE.
Joanne says:EVERYTIME U QUARRELD WTIH DIANJoanne says:I ALWAYS SIDED U
Joanne says:BUT NOW, I REALLY CANT STAND IT ALREADY
Joanne says:VERY FAST
Joanne says:I WILL BE BREATHLESSJoanne says:U ARE AS IRRITATING AS MY FATHER
Joanne says:im really really tired
Joanne says:tired of playing such silly friendship games
Joanne says:and i really dont know what i had done wrong to deserve a friend like u
Joanne says:im extra
Joanne says:go to your friends
Joanne says:all i can say
Joanne says:i had already guessed that lowlife "somebody is who"Joanne says:u both are bitches.
joanne says:and now u will think that i had hurt u
Joanne says:and u will tell the whole world my"bad deeds" again
Joanne says:anyway im get used Joanne says:misunderstood by peopleJoanne says:anyway
Joanne says:everybdoy think im blackhearted already.
Joanne says:never mind never mind
Joanne says:ask that bloody bitchy bitchy come spam my blog
Joanne says:i can stand it
Joanne says:im already so unlucky already
Joanne says:about having a friend like u =D
Joanne says:oh yaJoanne says:left ou one thing
Joanne says:everytime in msnJ
oanne says:i took as entertaining when im talking to u
Joanne says:anyway u also right?
Joanne says:i bet u have so many conversations waiting for u
Joanne says:it is really boring talking to u
Joanne says:u think u are a big deal to me?
Joanne says:last time maybe
Joanne says:but now not.
Joanne says:u think u had been betrayed by me?
Joanne says:up to u then
Joanne says:no big deal.
Just scared offline msges sending got error :)
Somebody really get onto my nerves.

=l

2009-08-23T22:33:00.002+08:00

Damn freaking boring today.
Whole day slack at home sleep , eat , watch tv , online.
Didnt study o.o .
I spend most of the time sleeping because yesterday slept at living room, didnt had a good sleep.
Today, all i can say boring...............................
Yesterday went to jurong point with mum and meet aunt and family.
After that went to uncle's house for dinner. Some sort of family gathering.
Ok so , i really hate those family gathering is pretty damn boring, jingyi and me was there all the way chatting until 11 pm -.-
Because the chua family were there having some family discussions and chatting zzz.
Boring right? .
Only at school then ok la so so.
But almost every week do the same thing so boring o.o
I wished that there is a person pop out in my life and come and interrupt my life. LMAO
Or destroy my life i don't mind LOL.
Jking ...
Because everyday doing the same thing very boring O.O
Ok buhbye nothing much too post because my life is boring =D .

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2009-08-22T01:08:00.002+08:00

Today, should be a wonderful and happy day for me , in sch.
But when i went home then my world became a nightmare.
Problems and problems.....

i really dont know what to say already.
I SERIOUSLY HATED THAT STUPID FREAKING BLOODY SON OF A BITCH OLD MAN. =D
I bet his responsibility in life is to make other people's life miserable.
Mum just want to have freedom, when she ready to tell that bloody son of a bitch that she wanted to divorce with that son of a bitch, that S.O.A.B just shouted at her and don't even give her chance to even say the word "divorce".
You freaking bloody old man, no one likes you, you bloody hell shit dam freaking extra, with you our home is broken bloody hell.
I wish i was a single parent kid then having a son of a bitch as f_th__ .
No more strength to write what happened.
Im sick totally sick and tired of life , IM JUST UNHAPPY.
IF LIKE IS A GAME, I WOULD PRAY TO GOD MY GAME WILL QUICKLY GAME OVER, I JUST WANT IT GAME OVER ! I DON'T WANT TO CONTINUE ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EVERYTIME I WAS THINKING THAT IM NOT FIT TO SAY IM STRESS.

BUT I CAN SAY, IM STRESS BECAUSE THE PROBLEMS AROUND ME I GETTING MORE AND MROE AND MORE , IF THIS WAS A DREAM, I DESPERATELY NEED SOMEONE TO WAKE ME UP, IF LIFE WAS A GAME, I WANT IT GAME OVER, I DONT CARE ! I JUST DON'T WANT TO CONTINUE ANYMORE ANYMORE ANYMORE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SICK AND TIRED.
ALWAYS THINKING THAT WHY OTHER PEOPLE HAD SO MUCH HAPPINESS IN LIFE, AND ALWAYS THINKING THAT STUPID PEOPLE JUST LIKE TO SHOW OFF THEIR HAPPINESS TO EVERYBODY TO PROVE THAT HOW HAPPY THEY ARE, BUT I JUST WONDERING WHY MY HAPPINESS JUST FLY AWAY LIKE THAT.
Avoided writing unhappy stuffs, but still.
Because i have nobody to go to, just unliving things my cat dolls just can't talk.

I really felt sad for my mum, my heart is just breaking, but i dont even know how to help her.
Something just always prove that i am stupid.
I dont even know her smile which one is fake or real.
Im scared when she show her fake happy to me, always had a weird feeling in my heart when saw that.
Can we just end our lives without pain and tears?
Life is a toughest game i ever played, i wanted to give up but Heaven just do not let.
So i would just continue the bloody life, study study study, money money, friends friends friends, bloody CCA blood CCA bloody CCA.
Always people ask me, "have you ever done anything you really regret doing it" ? and my awnser is always no. Is fake.
I can tell the truth now, everything i had done in my life i regretted doing it, its true.
My everything.
U still must continue your life after crying , because this is a rule of the game.
Sometimes i realy wished i can cry and scream loudly.
Tired...
Bye.

=l

2009-08-18T18:30:00.004+08:00

Today is quite a unlucky day?
Ok nearly late for sch today =D .
Assembly was in the hall, and i hate it so much.
So when reading period, ms fang come talk talk to me again about my absent in school yesterday.
Whenever i pon school that day, they next day she will talk to me then keep giving me chance say too many parents letter blah blah ~
So i knew it this time i sure will get a "gift" from ms serene ng , because too many times mah no more chance.
So, after that i saw ms fang talking to ms ng , then ms ng looked at me, then i was like "this time sure get detention", after while , ms serene ng walked around , i thought she won't come and find me already but i knew it i won't get away this time.
So, she really come find me , came talk about the absent in school and the bogus letters i wrote, then?
12 HOURS DETENTION GIFT BY HER ~~~~~~~~~ WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE -.-
Then, actually the letter i wrote only new-born baby will thought is real , this is what i wrote every time i absent from school -
"Dear Form Teacher of Ng Xue Qi ,
she was absent from school on d/n/yr because she was not feeling well.

Parent of Ng Xue Qi,
(MaMa's name)
(MaMa's signature)"
Pro right?
LOL.
Actually i don't want to lie , i just want to sleep =D .
I can lie very good, like ask my mum write because my hand writing looks very fake, and create more reasons like cough, sneeze, headache, high fever , breast cancer, brain cancer whatever cancer etc. =D
But i don't want, and i knew i will get it from ms ng one day, but i just cant control myself from sleeping because i just simply love my bed and my cats so much , raining bed and cats ^.^
But is also good la , i can spend my time in detention room to study for my common tests, i plan to do 1 day 3hrs =D.
But i still very bad mod in school today, dont know why really felt like punching and kicking everybody in 1/4 including my darlings.
But not to pui lu because she's from 1/3 , do not know why just damn hated my class today.
Then today hlaf of the day in class was thinking about the 12 hrs detention, how to clear it because the most hours of detention that i had done was 2 hrs T.T .
Even 2 hrs i felt like dying already T.T one more hour *sobs*
I even thought this week i can do 2 times then clear 6 hours, but thursday have stupid CCA, friday maybe also have.
So, first lesson was science, bloody mdm wong relief our class again.
I really found that our class very pro because they dared to don't respect teachers, espeacially those old hag including mdm wong.
Then, when mdm wong step into our class , no one bothered to stand up and greet her and whole class was like a fish market, when she ask the class "1/4 ! U all treat me as transparent issit?!" , then some of the gundoos in our class said " YEEESS ! " use shout one some more -.-
In the end ? Complain queen mdm wong went to complain to ms fang again then they get scolded lo.
But out of all those gundoos only jared admit about saying the "yes".
Dare to say, do not dare to admit D: .
But i found that the stupid old hag really like to complain so much , even complained that whole class treated her as transparent, when she asked us to take out our science texbook, many people don't even want to take out, and dont know which gundoo purposely smash the book on the table blah blah -.-
I really hated mdm wong, i want to slap her bloody face whenever i saw it =D .
After that was english lesson and was the most happiest lesson i had today, because I saw irritating eugene's things get throwed out of the class by mdm sumiate again and he deserve it HEHE.
Then is recess, nothing special, just puting food into my mouth and eat it.
After recess was Geography, i slept again D: .
I really forced my to pay attention but i just cant control my self because today's lesson was very boring o.o .
After that FT period did Olympics survey.
Then MT CA.
Chinese is not a problem to me =D
After that went to find ms ng , then she gave me the 12 hrs detention form , talked to me again for 10 mins .
Then i decided to delay my maths tution to 4pm then start because i suddenly very guai i want to go for ms zhao remedial =D.
But when i went in to the class i only saw marina + me , there were only 2 person?
Then i was like damn shock only marina bothered to go for the remedial lol.
After the remedial still need to go for another maths tution , then very tired today.
At first i had many things to write but then i am really tiredddddddddddddddddddd ~
Oh ya by the way , recently i found a song that i really love it - F*ck You by Lily Allen because i really wanted to sing it to so many people around me D; .
So i will stop here, very tired.
BUHBYE=D

Tired.

2009-08-16T00:03:00.003+08:00

Today again a tired day because got stupid CCA.
Slept at 3am then woke up at 6am today.
Then tired lo.
They say 6 50 am but then so many people late, after 7am then reach sch, some went to take the refreshment with M liang then made me like dont know wait for how long, i even run to school sial.
I should have slept some more.
So the after that we went to chinatown for some stupid heritage trial with the nanyang girls, all i can say is the trial sucks a nightmare.
Then our group was the last one to set off to station 1 and the last one to come back in the end of all stations lol think so.
So the first station already made us like dying already, first station is like they give stupid puzzles but then i think it is not fair because the pictures they cut into bloody hell damn small pieces, all i can say most of the group is not smart enough to do those bloody puzzles think so.
So the station ICs only gave us 5min to do it wth, so ofcourse didnt finish then the station ICs gave us see the pictures lo, then is like we must find the places that was shown on the pictures.
Only have one street to find , i think there are 6 pictures? We only found 3 things.
After that got one Buddha that we need to find and take picture of if, then we found 1 Buddha but the stupid hand position of the Buddha is not correct then obviously is not that one , then we then found the 2nd one also not -.-
So in the end we found 2 Buddhas but is not the one we were looking for -.- then buay song lia lo, wendy YA then very buay song go scold the Buddha then i was like wow lol
So we walk on that st. like dont know thousand of times , that time i already dying already, behind more worst.
So 2nd station i also forgot is what already.
I think is the one that wwe need to find the fire station, but at first the game marshals just gave us 1 clue , after that we ask for hint but need minus point, btw we almost every station need 2 hints one then in the end minus many point.
So we walked very long then found the fire station ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The do the dont know what thing lo.
Then after that I WAS LIKE DYING!
Is like we from chinatown walk to the fire station then walk back again , then walk to little india, walk back to chinatown again, then walk to clarke.
I just rmb that b_tch over there keep talking to her self and then gone crazy, buay song, irritating.
I rmb got one station is at one very high class chinese temple , then when we are finding those exhibits that we are supposed to find, there was a time that i was busying writing the description of the buddha because we need to write mah, then another 2 went to find the other 2 exhibits.
So when i was writing , i heard that wendy YA talking to one of the station IC from our sch one , then wendy keep complaining to her say what "other group got 2 brains then our group only gt 1 brain(her brain)" ," and other group Y.A. never help them one blah blah" ~
So the 2 other found the 2 other buddha already then we go find and it was pui lu's turn to write the bloody desc.
Then , again i heared what wendy talking again, is like she purposely say so loud like scared we didnt heard or thought we really stupid or what -.-
She said what , from walking all the way we keep complaining blah blah ~ Excuse me, you also keep complaining say boring boring tired blah blah, you yourself also complain ALL THE WAY, so i forgot what she said somemore , i just rmb it made me want to straight away slap her bloody face.
So , this fcking trial is a experience to me but is not a good one.
So the moral of the fcking trial is wendy really irritates me , firstly, i admit she was the one who kept helping us to find the stations on the map but , i donno if she really purposely want to waste time or not then we no need to do the rest of the stations, we can take the MRT or even BUS , but then only near one use walk la , but i really dont think from chinatown walk to clarke is called near , from chinatown walk to little india is called near pro, walk back and walk to again is such a waste of time , why not take bus or mrt o.o . But i bet she purposely took us and "walk around the garden" , when we are finding the last station parliament house located at clarke quay , we can actaully just cross one bridge then we reach already , but then she brought us walk one whole big round , from the river to the pubs all that , even the 2 game marshals behind also asked where are we going to go. Secondly , our group i admit 1 is hopeless brain damaged (for real u will know if u saw her) , 1 is like drunk like that keep laughing and laughing for no whatever reason when walking, is puilu, she really abit drunk, i lend her my water but she suddenly spit out some water when she was drinking
-.- i bet she every morning drink alcohol before coming to school lol. So according what u said to our brains , i think that , ok u are the one finding the stations , but u are always holding on to the only map and u always gone crazy talking to yourself how the helll we dare to ask u anything then we just let u find lo, we cannot find means cannot find what u think we should do? think we like such idiotic trials huh? But puilu and me also got help what , only that hui chi everything say dont know dont know dotn know nb knb -.- she really iritates me eh so freaking stupid (no offence) some times is not i evil or blackhearted eh, is i really fedup of those fkin poeple around me , that girl just keep walking without helping anything and i rmb got one station is the station ICs give u a card then one person must come out and look at the card but then the other members must guess what the person is going to say, then the card can't be shown to other group members and the person cant straight away say the words out that were printed on the cards must let the rest of the group members guess.
Then do u know wth hui chi did? She straight away show us the card LOL!
THE STATION ICS ALREADY SAID CANT SHOW THEN SHE STRAIGHT AWAY SHOW I WAS LIKE WTH LOL.
Anywayi really dont know what to say lah.
Just hate then when people thinks im stupid and i think it always happen, but im using many ways to try to prove that im not stupid.
Just hate when we were walking aimlessly, feel so tired.
So we walked here and there for 3 or 4 hours , from chinatown to fire station to little india , walk back to clarke , walk one big round for so whatsoever reasons.
So in the end top 3 is all from nanyan lo, actually it can be guessed what, 1 super damn good school, 1 normal neighboor hood school.
But then i just think i shouldnt have go, made me so tired, until now my legs still abit pain T.T
Tired ...

Sometimes i will feel that life is a dream or even a nightmare, that will take very long to wake up, just always suddenly feel that i really needs someone to wake me up from this dream, in school, in class,walking on the streets or even shopping, always had this feeling.

So after dismiss we must go back ourselves then I follow puilu and leesia they all to jurong point.

After eating they say want go to arcade but we were wearin GG uni mah so cant go.

We even tried many times, we even run pass the counter but still kena caught and get chased out LOL.

Then before i went home i went to leesia's house.

Went home straight away bath then sleep.

I am very tired now legs still abit pain knn.

K buhbye.

FEDUPFEDUP(:

2009-08-15T01:09:00.002+08:00

Hai.
Today, or yesterday?
Was a very very tired day.
CCA until 6pm then dismiss , after that still need to sing the dismissal song what all the sea all all the sky all the shit , lame song.
And then whenever they doing the dismissal thing is need to like all the people stand in one circle and then sing the all the cats and dogs song then dont know what step the floor or whatever, so i thought that it is quite nothing better to do , i wished faster dismiss then sing the all the shit song .
But whenever they doing i always feel like laughing because the song the tune is like damn weird, hmm ya and then it is bo liao.
So not going to post the whole day of my "adventure".
Because im tired and i need to reach school by 7 am tmr.
Actually at first i didnt intend to update blog because i want to straight away slp.
But just now went to diana's blog and then saw those post she made and the tags i was like having a very weird feeling, like i need to bash people and then i feel very irritated my some nonsense and thought that they are very annoying and extra.
Then diana wrote about yan jun stuffs that i lazy to type everything out here.
So, im thinking that, poeple change very fast espeacially when we get into secondary school, is our step to the half-adults world, and it is more complicated then i thought o.o .
So, espeacially our school is some sort of lousy neighboor hood schools with a quite lot of number of gangsters, actually cannot say gangsters la, is like, i also donno how to say, hmmm , then i can say like their brain is tangled up when they are at this stage, growing to be an adult and then they are aimless, aimless road brought them to do wrong things and some of them are just only rebel , this made them became the so called bad students.
Hmm or i just say rebel youngsters?
Aiya heck care.
Walao eh i always talk out of topic -.-
Ok so diana thought that yanjun had changed so much, actaully so so la abit la , like 10 mm or what ? LOL?
BUt then it cant be helped mah , go to secondary school ofcourse will get influence by those seniors one, somemore YJ' CCA is volleyball and our school those so called "volleyballers" is some so called like what i wrote just now, then i also forgot what i want to say LOL.
Actually i quite don't bothered if YJ change of whatever , i just like, got chance laugh and chat together then do lo, if not then nvm lo.
If it was last time then i bothered la, but then now ok la so so, quite fed up, irritated by stupid people.
Don't really trust people nowadays , i only trust myself, mum, my husband(cat dolls -.-) and music.
So everytime i get irritated by people in school i will just sing loudly and hear rock music with vulgarities in the lyrics, quite alot of time i do that, that means quite alot of time i get irritated by stupid people.
Still have many thigns to writ maybe i will continue tmr buhbye.
Dream of sheeps.

=)

2009-08-05T23:56:00.006+08:00

Hi hunks and babes.

Today? Normal day.

I always thought today i will be very lucky because this was how the magazine said.

But then still so so .

Bus early in the morning delay like siao , nearly took taxi but still took the stupid bus heng didnt late.

Then assembly at hall o.o

I thought no assembly ?

I thought no big gathering ?

I thought they thought everybody had germs on their body ?

O.O

Then i just follow other people walk actually i dont know assembly is at the hall o.o

Then during reading period miss fang talk to me about too many parents letter bblah blah.

And then she say i now FA(financial assistance) liao at first i was like huh ?
NO one even told me -.-

I always tell my mum i dont want FA cuz is like beggars because we is not poor until so pathetic mah -.- need free socks free uni -.-

But actually can choose one o.o i want textbooks only.

I was like LOL when i saw the free socks free uniforms free shoes, i donno our MOE so kind sial LOL. each got 2 sets some more.

But then FA also i also ok lah i must accept my fate because some idiots go take the FA thing for me without telling me. And i will curse that idiot (:

Then after that isDT then blah blah do worksheet.

After that is science, disgusting mdm wong teach again as i saw her face i want to vomit blood so i was in half-sleep mode though i was looking on the screen.

After that is recess eat eat eat.

Then knb maths.

Maths lessons sucks.

Some mroe now leave sch already sian.

Stupid miss zhao give small test then actually i can do finsih and do it very well.

But theres a bunch of idiots do fisnih the paper already at there shouting " cher times up already! "

Some more im siting in between the idiots who made so much noise made me cant concentrate.

OK then i was dam irritated during maths lessons.

BUt those idiot who made noise get to write reflection compo or watever by miss zhao.

All i can say is they deserve it and that iritating boy sitting besdie me get to write 400 words and im glad for him send him my regards muaks. *evil laughs* LOL

After that is GEO , boring but i forced my self to hear.

After that is PE.

Damn sian, play what modern olympic games and ancient olympic games.

Then the ancient olympic games have one game is called what chariot race.

Is like need 4 person , then 2 person carry 1 person then another person behind supporting the person being carry.

Then must run -.-

OK so the race to me is very cute and funny , then got one group is like run half way the person on top being carried drop/fall down .

Is like the sound damn loud then i was like LOLOOLOLOLOLOL!

Then lessons over.

Atfer that went to IMM with diana they all.

Then we went to kopitiam and eat .

After that we did a self made recipe that looks very nice but is gross

Okay at first it was a normal chicken rice soup.

BUt some powerpuff nutcase girl so add something.

Diana and vaish was like adding so many thing into the soup

They even added mayonese LOL

Walao then vaish even go add mayonese and then go stir but it cant dissolve LOL.

There there the white white thing LOL

Inside got my cabbage some more LOL

And chilli sauce.

see see see want to add some more -.-

But i think this is their hobby lah everytime like that.

Left over porridge also like that.

Vaish even go try the soup twice and said nice LOL -.- ?

After that we went to daiso to buy my plate for HE pratical test.

Then i go home i go sleep ! =D!

Oh bye bye.

Finally update blog *sobs* ;

=D

2009-07-06T21:27:00.054+08:00

Ok today is the great escape to the science center ~ .
So at first all say 10 am vaish, yan jun , me wait for each other at boonlay bus interchange then take 198 go meet diana and gp to science center.
But in the end everybody was late D:
I woke up at 8 50 am then prepare, after that yanjun say meet me at jurong east mrt station at 9 40 am then go to boonlay together cuz anyway she need to change mrt.
Then 9 40am i was still at the bus stop to jurong east mrt -.-
So i called her and told her not to wait for me already then she say she late also cuz she brought one more friend then donno what happen blah blah.
After that so in the end she straight away go science centre never go with us.
So i took the train to boonlay interchange, waited for vaish, then after that we go take 198.
Then meet diana.
After that went to meet yanjun they all.
Then we walked around the science centre, watch the exhibits, anyhow press the machines, go to all the department.
At first we went to mcdonalds and eat early lunch and im the slowest who eat finish again -.-
All say i slower then ah ma again -.-
Because the stupid fries got so much mah dont want to waste.
then after mcdonald we went to the omni theatre and dont know sit some kind of areoplane shaped machine then will keep shaking blah blah~
Because instead of the movie the donno wat areoplane shaped machine is cheaper mah $4 only D;
Then in inside we can watch some sort of 3 mins discovery film cartoon one blah blah.
Then we then go to the science centre.
So we walk around every department screaming and shouting ~
But most of the time only diana, vaish , me .
Because poor yanjun'd brother here scared there scared everything scared, just a little dark places then got those "scary" music / tune or whatever then he scared.
And cried -.-
so yanjun must stay outside only 3 of us went to the dark places exhibits then we was like screaming and shouting.
Then there was like some sort of room for exhibits then we go in and shout like -.-
Then i remember there is one kind of 3D fish pond , is like if we go touch the screen then got water sound and splashing sound.
So me and diana was at here act as splashing water to each other then got the splash splash sound SO IT WAS LIKE SO RETARDED LIKE WE ARE SPLASHING AIR TO EACH OTHER LOL!
Then after that when we are going out of those dark places to meet yan jun,
instead of walking one big round we go climb over the bar LOL.
I was like many people there and they go climb then i no choice climb with them-.-
So after that we go to other exhibits.

My darlings <3

Then after that we went to some sort of dark places then their clothes became so BRIGHT.

Cool huh.

Then we went to the body department, they was at there taking the height and weight.

SEE! the smallest one is 4.5 weeks so cuteeeeeee.

Then they was playing with the bone puzzles is not weird, but it is used to put on the board there

but they go put on their own body -.-

Then i was like ROFL LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FIRST TIME SAW PEOPLE PUT ON THEIR OWN BODY LOL!

DIANA!!!!!!!! SMEXY BONES ! LOL

When i saw what shes doing with the leg bones then i was like ROFL LMAO LOL!

LAUGH UNTIL WANT TO DIE !

THE PROBLEM IS ACTUALLY NORMAL HUMAN LEG BONES IS <- -> BUT SHE GO PUT -><-

INSTEAD OF OUTSIE SHE PUT INSIDE THEN I WAS LIKE LOL!

THEN AFTER THAT WE WAS WALKING WITH LEG BONES LIKE THAT LOL .

IMANGINE GOT PEOPLE LEG IS LIKE THAT ONE AND THEY WALKS LIKE THIS LOL!

Then theres a room go in is 3D donno what video then outside of the room they got provide 3D glasses for the video , instead of using it to watch they go play with the glasses LOL.

COOL RIGHT ! FASHION LOL

WEEEEEEEEE ~

Smexy, i want to marry this man/woman muaks LOL

WOW!

Then is there is this cage or whatever for kidsto play as i saw kids climbing up and down.

Then this 2 "cute" girls climbed up there and wanted to act as kid or whatever, as they were climbing up and down with the kids.

I was like walao other kids so small sized this 2 big sized fellow snatch away all their place , somemore people size so small u 2 size so big SO EXTRA LOL BLOCK KIDS CLIMBING SOMEMORE ! lmao
So we proceeded to our last station because want to say sayonara already mah.

Then we go across this special mirror that made me first time found that diana's head is so smexy LOL!

So after that we say bye bye to yan jun they all then we left we 3 go buy geography activity book.

Then we went to jurong point, eat.

Then popular only have sec 2 one too bad lo.

Vaish need to go home early so around 4 pm we go with her to the bus interchange wait for bus , then diana and me decided to loiter longer.

So when waiting for the bus we was talking about miss zhao english.

That day i was absent and they were talking about the miss zhao say

point A point B to "ponk" A "ponk B.

Then whole class laugh LOL. RUDE !

Then i was saying "PONG A AH PONG B AH MAH JONG THAT"PONG" AH PING PONG BALL " !

=D !

LOL childish !

Its really quite funny what, if is chinese people sure know the mahjong that "PONG!"

ya she pronouced like this LOL!

Then we 2 after that when loitering around the JP1 JP2.

First we go NTUC AND PLAY WITH CUTE CUTE STUFFS LIKE ME ! jk lol

We we go take a trolley and put our bags inside and some stuff toys SO CUTE !

WE EVEN GO AROUND THE MEAT FOOD DEPARTMENT WITH THE STUFF TOYS LOL
Then one auntie pass by and saw our trolley then told her daughter/grand "eh that jie jie buy so many hor! " (in chinese)

THEN WE WAS LIKE LOL!!!!!!!!

WE ARE NOT EVEN BUYING WE ARE JUST PLAYING LOL.

LET ME SHOW U SOMETHING !

BEFORE!

AFTER! LOL!

IS LIKE WE SEE THE ELEPAHNT NOSE TOOO CUTEEE THEN WE GO SQUEEZE LOL!

CUTE RIGHT ! WE GO PRESS THE NOSE UNTIL LIKE THAT LOL!
Then we play until sian liao went to kiddy place.

Then we both thought that our leg damn pain so must find a place to sit then we go sit insde the fitting room LOL.

Then we was like laughing and talking inside so loudly so i was wondering what if people outside heard some giggling noise in the fiting room what they will think LOL.

They will thought inside is what and maybe we are doing some you know .. dirty stuff LOL!

Then diana go wear the hat at the baby department and ofcourse is for new born baby and i cant believe it fits her head LOL.

1ST ONE NICER SO CUTE !

I WAS SAYING THAT 2ND ONE LIKE TIO CANCER THOSE HAT LOL! CHOY.

Then after that loiter until around 7pm then say BYE BYE ! .

Go home le.

It was a fun day yep.

Tmr school reopen T.T

Just hope H1N1 and the school close down better T.T .

Buhbye.
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=l

2009-07-04T22:05:00.002+08:00

Hey.
have not been posting for a loooooooong time.
School days too busy/lazy/tired to post.
Weekends nothing to post D:
Then?
Homework havent touch yet lol.
Then just now went to IMM and buy something.
Bought Green Day new album weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Then saw got many good albums out now dontknow buy which one D: .
Then decided to buy Green Day one first.
After that buy the transformers ost.
Then super junior sorry sorry album.
Then bla bla ~ .
Ok so monday is holiday.
Then diana and friends at first say want to go sentosa one day trip.
So they plan the trip until so fun but at last 4 person 2 cant go zzz.
I was like -.-
So disappointed T.T
But cant blame them la blame their parents =x
Vaish mum very strict to her , far places cant go only can go jurong point -.-
Yanjun need to take care of her little brother again T.T i feel sad for her D:
cuz last time june holidays go out with her and her friends she bring her little brother along then is like 1 more person very extra.
Cuz is like her brother nothing to do then so boring.
But that time we go play boring volley ball , quite boring la actually lol, anyway he can just sit there and play fingers or whatever.
But imagine if we 4 go shopping then what if he is lost in the shopping mall or whatever.
I mean, why dont just she ask other people to take care of him or put him in the child care center.
Like this she like no entertainment go out with friends also cannot D: .
Then diana at last say want to go vivo city and watch drag me to hell.
But i thought NC16?
Hope not lo.
Imagine if yanjun bring her brother go watch drag me to hell LOL.
But even vivo city vaish also cannot go her mum dont let -.-
Only let her go to jurong point.
I was like wth -.- too strict?
Like among all of them i most free sial , my mum very lenient to me lol.
Then diana say just go vivo city and dont let vaish mum know lol.
Later her mum go spot check how? that type of mum all very boliao one LOL.
Throughout all this discussions i was like why just a simple outing have so many problems -.-
Aiya whatever ~
Bye ~

zzz

2009-06-23T17:13:00.004+08:00

Ok blah blah.
Blog dead --------------------------------------------
Because freaking holidays really damn boring nothing post.
Some times had a fun day.
But lazy to post.
Anyway my holidays are miserable, at home most of the days slack at home.
Nobody to talk to.
Mum go to work.
Brother zzz.
A ghost hanging around in MY house.
This is a disgusting ghost , lowlife, stupid disgusting old man.
I really fedup of that ghost.
Anyway i will just call him disgusting nobody.
He dont deserve a "him".
I will just leave a little small respect to him. (small like the germs in the "disgusting nobody" smelly mouth)
Just now i was at the living room and wanted to had a good lie on the new L shape sofa bought by my poor mother that had a "diisgusting nobody" as husband =D !
Then?
Beacuase mum had just gone to work brother at room.
Then the stupid "disgusting nobody" purposely at my behind walk around.
And purposely go slap the sofa fuck you la.
IS LIKE THE STUPID NOBODY AT THERE WALK AROUND LIKE A GHOST HAUNTING ME.
THEN PURPOSELY WALK SO LOUD I PUT ON MY EARPHONES ALSO CAN HEAR THE STUPID NOBODY WALKING SOUND "SII SII".
He really so pervetic.
Cant i just have some peace?
Why my life so miserable.
And the stupid nobody so bhb , skin thick like shit.
Stupid nobody knew no one likes it.
Still purposely always go haunt people.
Disturb people.
Stupid nobody more worst then a ghost.
Stupid nobody go around huanting people's happiness , smiles , laughter.
And made people like miserable.
I really hate the stupid nobody
Stupid nobody made my holidays so miserable.
I just dont want to stay in my room the WHOLE entire day .
I just totally hated that disgusting nobody, i dont care what people say, i just hate that stupid nobody.
Even if one day he d_e.
I wont shed a tears for him .
Because i saw how that stupid nobody made people life so miserable.
Stupid nobody didnt kill or whatever.
Stupid disgusting stole people's happiness.
And did it PURPOSELY.
U know, not every old people should be respected.
Some stupid old people live in this stupid world for nearly 70 years and still dont know he or she is wrong or bad.
Maybe its just a character?
Somebody is born lowlife yeah, unchangeable.
I dont care wkat i will get for what i said and think.
Retribution? *laughs*
This world is unfair , happy ending only happens on tv. =D !
Sometimes i really wish i can live in my own imanginary world forever.
Like i always said - I myself not even a perfect person, so how i make things around me is perfect? *laughs*
Ok in the end of the day i still need to stay in my room until night .
Bye bye.

=D

2009-06-07T20:46:00.004+08:00

Went to sentosa beach today.
DAMN FUN ! =D
Swimmed.
Just hope my hair wont get so fast curled just because i swim into the sea.
Ah yi said wat need at least 1 month then can swim or not will spoil the hair.
D:
At first so scared.
Then don care D:
Cuz its been so long since i come to a beach and swim.
Then play lo.
Very funnnnnn!
Actually want to take picture, but hand full of sand and seawater D:
We even played frisbee on the sea there D:
Fun sial.
Then went to vivo then went to west coast for dinner then ah yi and family sent be back home.
Then i myself go to west coast plaza to buy subway sandwich <3>

2009-06-05T15:30:00.005+08:00

Hieeee

Yesterday went to reborn my precious hair + cut.

But now i lost all my fringe =(.

All mixed with the long hair.

Very difficult to comb D:

Ok holiday?

BORED TO - DEATH .

Recently i really very very boringggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.

I went to science centre with aunt and family.

I went to play volley ball with a few people.

I went to reborn my hair.

Then almost all other days i slack at home D:

Then become fat.

Then i watch crayon shinchan

(Crayon shinchan)

Then play restaraunt city.

Then play gunz.

Then hmmm practice guitar.

Didnt study.

Aiya heck care la don care donno why almost all subject get grade 5 zzzz.

Ok nothing to write.

Bye bye.

~~

2009-05-29T16:30:00.006+08:00

Hi poo poos.

This is my 101st post weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

lol -.-

Yah, last day of stupid school, just take report book.

See ah, even 1 day i cant stand already today i was like damn boring then keep sleeping.

Then keep woke up by yanjun phone calls -.-

MY results are ...

Science fail only.

others almost all grade 5.

Pro right?

I think only maths 4 MT 2.
I deprove alot D:

BORED TO DEATH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I keep hearing songs.

Then keep thinking of the past again. -sobs-

Keep thinking -

when im still a kid, how happy i was D:

Especially Pri 1 to Pri 4

Actually is only this period? haha

This period is my most happiest happiest happiest happiest school life.This period is my most happiest happiest happiest happiest years in my life.

Actually when im k1 k2 i bet im happy la but i almost forgot everything lol.

So, pri 1 to pri 4.

Is my most happiest life throughout this years. Really.

Im living with no obstacles.

I had many friends.

I had no quarrels with my friends all people around me.

My uncle had not pass away yet.

Missed him alot yeah T.T.

Then that period i had not lose my confidence yet.

Throughout all my friends in those years,

I remembered Aileen and Fiona.

Ha ha still haven't forget them yet.

They are really my best friends yeah.

In those years we really had fun really really really.
Thinking about the memories with them ~~~

So kiddy and no worries.

I even wrote a diary about them, i still had it lol.

Remembered Fiona is a very cool and woody girl.

Aileen is really kind hearted, she even helped a guy she hated alot last time D:

Shes really a saint indeed.

Unfortunately we sepearate class when we was P5.

Is very weird, after we seperate classes we had little chat.

BUt when i P5 , though they didnt talk to me alot, i still remember them.

Sometimes i really thought " they forgot me already" ?

Then everytime recess i still saw Fiona standing and leaning on the same pillar eating some plastic-bag food.

She always does that i remembered.

I dont really understand y she dont like to take a sit or whatever lol.

P5 and then i think the last time i talk to Fiona is when the p5 camp.

Then when we are eating lunch, she said"take more rice the vegetables sucks".

I was like LOL.

Then p5 p6 is my pontent school years lol.

BUt i still had not forgot them.

PSLE i saw them at the waiting room.

Recess i saw them.

After school saw Fiona waiting for school bus.

Because last time i very weird, almost everybody, when seperate class, then they really had little talk afterthat, then days goes by, when they saw each other, not even a hello.

Im sure they still remember me.

Then when im p6, the last day of my pri school life.

I saw them again, i really want to say bye bye to them.

Dont know why i dont dare lol.

So, i walked out of the school gate without a bye bye to them D: .

Really had fun with them those years.

They are my perfect best friends.

I think i will not forget them.

Maybe forever?

And 2009.
I was thinking - they sure in good school, had a new life, had a good life, good friends, good teachers.

Their studies are really good, last time i also good mah then same class with them.

But then i droped on 2007.

How stupid i am.

They had a good future.

They went to the school they like.

Me leh?They are walking, im still standing, no improvement hahahahahahahahah. D:

Aiya whatever lol.

Orange one is me, last time i was like dam nerd + ugly.

Somemore i tie plaits.

If now want me to plaits i rather die lol.

Purple one are my darlinks <3

I was still a kid that time.

So innocent hehe.

I had changed so much huh?

Last time my skirt long to nearly leg.

Then now i fold until above knee lol.

I hope when teachers day i go back to qifa still can see those purple ones then say bye bye to them. lol

Ok bye, i go watch crayon shinchan LOL i still love it muaks.

Ok just fcuk yourself.

2009-05-28T18:23:00.005+08:00

This day.
I was freaking bad mood, irritated , fcuked up.
Ok it was like that.
Yan jun and me went to westmall yesterday then we just really nothing better to do,
we went to the library children section and see those animals books.
Then we bo liao go take photo of the animals from the book, we thought it looks really real like we just went to the zoo.
Then when we at the bus station waiting for bus, diana called us.
Then we just lie to her we went to the "singapore zoo" and took some "pictures".
Then the next day.
She angry.
zzzz
I mean, it was just a small joke right?
Who the fcking hell knows she will really believe it and wrote on her blog say what we left her out blah blah blah blah ?
And is like impossible right?
We dont even knwo how to go to the singapore zoo and that is after school we dont have time and money right?
Who the hell know she will believe man?
Somemore i said SORRY already?
Yan jun also said sorry already.
CANT YOU JUST SO PETTY?!
I mean is not the first time already.
And somemore always because of small little stuffs u angry.
Then u EMO to us again.
I was like fcuk zzz -.-
NOt again?
Oh man?
I dont bother.
I know yesterday yan jun also like that but then is because we keep laughing at her cos of she keep saying wrong things then we made fun of her just because of that.
BUt this is the first time she play the childish EMO game right?
BUt you ?
Again and again and again.
When i first know you 2.
When you first time emo cuz of some silly small things.
Then i still remember that time yan jun and me keep sending u SILLLY messages.
Now i think back - its just a waste of time.
We are just wasting our time and money.
Why?
Cos that time i dont know this type of incident will happen again.
Again and again.
I remember one time is yanjun and you play in the class then yan jun go sit on your file then i forgot wat stupid things happen, you emo to us again.
Just think back, since we know each other, how many times had you throw temper to us or emo to us?
Then when you play silly emo game again, yan jun or me will keep like saying "blah blah blah dont emo la ehhh"
Then will like keep go console or ask you or whatsoever shit.
Its waste of saliva actaully.
And is silly.
Until very very long already , things like this happens almost EVERYDAY.
So we already get used to it already.
This time, we said sorry already.
And you?
Ignore us.
WE KEEP SAYING? YOU IGNORE US.
SO WE STOP TALKING TO YOU BECAUSE U IGNORED US FIRST AND LET ME REPEAT WE HAD SAID SORRY COS OF THAT SILLY CHILDISH JOKE.
AND YOU WROTE ON YOUR BLOG WHAT YAN JUN KEEP TALKING TO ME DO WAT STUPID SHIT SIGH SIGNAL WHATSOEVER SHIT.
Say wat u and vaish also human blah blah blah.
YAN JUN NOT HUMAN THEN?
And by the way, u say wat new friend wat blah blah blah.
So are you saying im extra?
And let me repeat.
YOU ARE THE ONE WHO DOES NOT CARE ABOUT PEOPLE FEELINGS.
AND I RECENTLY GOT ANOTHER BLOG POST IS BECAUSE OF SOME DINASOUR INCIDENT THAT REALLY IRRITATES ME.
YOU SAID SOMETHING REALLY HURT YOUR GOOD FRIEND AGAIN.
TINK ABOUT IT.
Yanjun keep saying sorry, you ignored.
Say what you talk to her and she purposely ran to me -.-
I didnt even saw her ran, and how she run?
And what do you mean by purposely?
U didnt even bothered to talk to her.
Everytime u play emo childish game is always we say say say talk talk talk say sorry watsoever shit.
Then u ignored us, until u want to talk to us then u talk to us.
U think we dont have feelings is it?
Actually being honest.
Being friends with you sometimes may be fun.
But is also tiring.
Dont know when i will make u angry again cos of some silly reasons.
Then when u emo to us we always need keep like talk to you and we ourself being ignored by you.
And then everytime u suddenly willing to talk to us already, dont know when the same incident will happen again.
And everytime u play this game, friends around you also will felt very bad mood and totally effected their mood.
Again and again.
Today?
You ignored us cos of the stupid zoo thing.
Dont you know you hurt us more then we hurt u.
Why u always say other people hurt u but u just wont think actually u yourself hurt other people.
Say wat yan jun keep talking to me.
You also keep talking to vaish right?
And what you said to vaish.
Say what family problems, financial problems.
U see, you had a normal good father and mother.
A good family.
Actually i really dont know what you want ha ha.
Your good friend yan jun, had more problems then u, she cried eh just now.
And all you know how to do is emo to us, and tried to hurt her feelings.
(what you write really hurts her)
At the class, we didnt do anyting purposely or wants to hurt anybody including vaish.
We tried to talk to you, but you ignore us.
And we know that things like this happened often.
U ignore us, we really dont know what to do and no idea what you wanted us to do and wat you want.
Ok, i admit we had lied to you but i repeat one last time, WE ARE REALLY SORRY OF THAT STUPID SINGAPORE ZOO INCIDENT.
Say what what we are not true friends blah blah.
How can you scold yan jun jerk?
Its really mean.
Even if u 2 are strangers, i find no reason for u to scold her a jerk?
You know, im always thinking, why other people 1 group of friend can so closed to each other and so happy, enjoyed every minute.
But us? EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO ALMOST EVERY SINGLE DAY !
Sometimes i really thought, why cant we just cherish every minute we are together?
There will always be a day that we need to separate
Why dont just cherish every minute?
If we quarrel, why must always quarrel for just a small little things?
Snacthing phone pouch, siting on you file, snatching things , little joke or whatever.
Its just wasting time.
I rather you talk and quarrel with us then ignore us.
And then after that you observe us and see everything from the surface and try to hurt people on blog.
When you keep quiet, we really donno what you wants man.
And then u post your blog like say yan jun very evil like that and didnt took u as a friend.
Awake from her mistake?
Come on?
What had she done wrong?
Why must u see everything from the surface?
Yeah we lied to u, but we didnt lie anything big right?
Just we thought is fun then how we know you really believe because the picture was so fake espeacially the monkey one.
Is not yan jun dont want to maintain the friendship, is u the one.
Is like u totally ignored her, how the hell she knows she hurt you or not?
And u made her give up.
Give up of talking to u.
I bet she hated the feeling of being ignored, you too right?
By the way, when i am writing , i saw what you wrote -
(stpid freaking bloody asshole nerdy no heart jerk yan jun!!! u SUX!!!! dun think u very good hor... (btw, i hope u dun see this part yan jun, as u will be hurt, anyway, u are deserve to be called like this, so dun worry... :D) )
Actually i dont intend to scold u, but i really feel very irrtated when i saw this thing.
IT WAS LIEK WHAT YAN JUN HAD DONE WRONG TO DESERVE THINGS LIKE THIS?
SHE EVEN LOST HER NIKE BOTTLE , WHY SHE WAS SO UNLUCKY MAN.
AND WHEN SHE COME SHE SAW THINGS LIKE THIS.
YOU KNEW SHE WILL READ YOUR BLOG AND U DID IT PURPOSELY.
U SUCKS.
EVEN IF SCHOOL REOPEN, U WANT FRIEND, FRIEND, JUST DONT THROW CHILDISH TEMPER.
DONT WANT FRIEND, I WILL BE HAPPY.
U REALLY SUCKS LIKE HELL.
YOU FCKING BITCH.
U PURPOSELY WANTS TO HURT PEOPLE FEELINGS BITCH.
KNS KANINABU KAO BEI KAO BU.
Fck you.
Fck yourself i mean (:
I really agreed what benjamin said about you today - "zi zuo zi shou"“自作自受”
I hoped you know what it means.
And i totally agreed on that.
KEEP SAYING LIKE WE VERY EVIL LIKE THAT UNTIL VAISH ALSO EMO TO US.
PLEASE REMEMBER, IS YOU YOURSELF WANT TO BREAK THIS FRIENDSHIP.
AND U TRIED HARD TO BREAK.
ANYWAY, U THOUGHT U ARE THE MOST PITIFUL ONE.
BUT U ARE THE ONE WHO ARE HURTING FRIENDS AROUND U.
Maybe u are too perfect.
U had a good family
U had good results etc.
So you think you are very big.
Ya, big ass.
You are shameless, keep saying that is other people fault and you think you had NOTHING wrong.
(do u actually know how to respect a person? i dun think so... cos the way u behave and your attitude, i think u dont!! infact, u hv some attitude problem!!! dun mind me saying all these, cos when u hv a new friend, then u will leave those old wan. FOR YOUR INFORMATION, me and vaish are also human being, we are not flush toys!!! i just wanna find a true friend, that's all...)
This is what you wrote that irritates me.
YAN JUN, DID SHE SCOLD OR PUNCH YOU ANYTHING?
WHY SYIANG THAT SHE HAD ATTITUDE PROBLEM?
JUST BECAUSE U IGNORED HER AT THE FIRST PLACE AND SHE GIVE UP TALKING TO U AND START TALKING TO ME THEN U SAY SHE HAD ATTITUDE PROBLEM?
And is a line saying that im extra right?
And wat she didnt treat u and vaish as human being.
Are u blind or deaf or handicaped?
In which way she treat vaish or u badly?
I mean, u ignored her at the first place.
Then u angry we 2 cos of the stupid zoo thing.
Then u started talking to vaish and saying that we evil or watsoever shit.
Followed by vaish emo to us.
How she dont treat u 2 as human? huh? huh?.
Ok this all is the last thing i want to say to that HUMAN BEING.
----------------------------------------------------------------------
Anyway, i just want to be happy.
LAst year when im not a student of qifa already, i sweared i wont let other people to steal my smile again.
I sweared i will start a new life.
I sweard i will keep it up in my studies.
I sweared i wont be lonely anymore.
When 2009 reach, things made me lost my confidence.
Day goes by, 1 day 2 day 3 day 2nd week 3rd week.
I found that i had lesser and lesser confidence.
Ya i didnt study i admit.
And i lost my confidence.
I found that im weak in everything.
No life , no skills , no future.
Even my CCA , i regreted joining it because is a useless CCA, just for express students to waste their time.
I want a skill, i need a skill.
Im wasting my every minute.
My life is so blur.
Is a straight road, i cant even see what is infront, just walk and walk and walk.
Until i see the end.
Somemore start to have big financial problems.
I also scared, really scared sometimes.
Is not i dont care about anything is just ....
Aiya fck .
From that day i decided to pontent school, i already not a perfect person.
Im not perfect, how can i let things around me is perfect?
Ya i cant.
I found this year i really hate going home, saw stupid old bastard, then i have no mood.
Go home, talk to wall.
I always think that friends around me is better in everything, they had a good future.
Me?
MY road is blur.
I always know what i wants, but i dont dare to do it.
I had no courage to do it? maybe ?
Anyway, i need this one month to tidy up my everything.
And then continue walking again.

everything is shit

2009-05-24T19:46:00.003+08:00

Today is a bad day.
I feel so irritated + fcked up + bad mood + want to kill people etc.
I hate holidays.
First dam boring then online.
Then diana say want to watch wat discovery dinasour stuff at wat omini theatre on june holidays.
Then we ask yanjun.
Then donno wat the hell had happen.
They quarrel again.
zzz
But im sure is just because of one stupid dinasour watsoever stuff zzz.
Then i already feel so irritated some more today the freaking weather is killing me hot like donno wat stupid thing.
Anyway more than that happened made me feel dam irritated just lazy to say zzz.
Then mum yesterday go out to work until today like 3 or 4 pm then come home fck zzz.
Left me alone at home again facing the stupid beast son of a bitch old man.
His dam disgusting keep looking at me i really want to stab him, maybe on june holidays.
THEN VERY VERY VERY VERY BAD MOOD.
PLAY GAMES?
FAIL FAIL FAIL KEEP HEARING THE "YOU FAILED" WATSOEVER STUFF KNS.
Then stomach dam pain fcuk.
Ok the point is today i really feel very fcuked up.
It was like just now.
Cuz my mum had gone out to IMM then she forgot to off the air-con.
Then stupid disgusting son of a bitch go open my sneaklily open my door again then found the hell air-don is left open.
Then his mouth keep spiting some watsoever shit words.
Saying that wat the electric bills is he pay one and then mum didnt even pay 1 cent and wat he pay until very wat then saying things like he very big and if his gone then whole fmaily will die .
Get a life freaking old fellow.
U go die.
Ok fine im evil ? okay ? HAPPY? HAPPY? FCK YOU ANYWAY EVERYBODY SAYS SO WAT WE TREAT THE STUPID OLD MAN VERY BAD FCK YOU KNS U THINK U WAT SOME MORE LAST YEAR I REMEMBER CLEARLY GOT ONE WHATSOEVER BALD DISGUSTING MAN FROM KxxT RxxxE SEC SCHOOL SCOLDED ME LIKE HELL SAYING THAT I TREAT MY "PAPA" VERY BADLY WAT OH FCK YOU FCK YOU U GO DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
HE DONT EVEN KNOW ANY THING ANY THING ABOUT MY HOME STILL SAY WAT ? SPITING SHIT.
Ok just now that son of a bitch spiting shit right.
Then i feel very fedup and continue eating and ignore him.
At that moment i really cant stand him and i really wish he is gone forever at that moment and i can stab him over 100 times and kick him like hell and throw him down from 13 floor.
Just take it as im evil.
Anyway no one has the right to judge me.
Just hope he shut his shit mouth and give back the $10 my mum gave me.
Just because i lazy to take does not mean u can take it.
This is call steal, u didnt ask.
Anyway if u ask i will just ask u to shut up and go to africa and eat yourself =D.
Still think u very big huh?
I will not say wat evil thing to had done that make a woman's life until so miserable.
Why u always want to make people life so miserable?
No one likes u.
Even ur another watsoever son had left you.
This means you yourself must do some reflection.
U made my life miserable too.
I scared one day i really cant stand on you and stab u with knife.
Dont even remember when u had a watsoever stroke who was the one that hated you so much so much so much so freaking much don even dared to divorce with you and took care of you and you gave her trouble seriously.
And then how u treat her freaking disgusting worst than a beast guy?
Why dont u get lost to africa and get some reflection.
Anyway u don even have the money for the tickets to africa.
So please jog or walk to there.
I said wat i like to say.
Because i really hated you.
She really will divorce with u.
And u will be alone.
Cuz i will be extremely happy if i dont need to see your face.
I already said.
I am FREAKING IRRITATED ON 24 MAY 2009!
And please get your eyeballs off from me.
Dont always look at me sneakily because u already so pervertic.
One day i really will dig you e....
OK fine.
Im evil.
Just like somebody said, im not saint, im insane.
Maybe one day really.
Because this world, humans all liked to fake.
They still cant live without money.
Sometimes i think, really need to use money to buy happy?
Humans, all running in a marathon everyday.
Racing like hell for money.
Espeacially when you are a adult.
Studying like hell for what?
For money right?
zzz
I also dont know wat i am talking about.
Just feel very irritated.
Just want to say stupid old beast, you made her life so miserable, please do some reflection.
Ok bye bye

=D

2009-05-18T23:52:00.006+08:00

Today hmmm...
Quite fun though is exam but is last day of exam hehe.
Then this morning perfume the press thing spoil.
Very bad mood.
Then go to school saw so many people at the canteen then very little people at class.
Art exam hmm, quite okay la not so difficult.
Then they give Fig 1 and Fig 2 then ask us to find those similarities, diffrences, artist statement then i dont even know what the hell is that then wrote nonsence lo.
I only like the drawing part hehe.
Then ask us to draw something similar to Fig 1 Fig 2 then i think i drawed out of topic.
I draw until dam colourly then my tittle is Coulour Of Raindrops, cool huh D:
Then i draw peddle of water not blue colour but got many colours, raindrops dropping from the sky then the raindrops all diffrent colour.
I use all the eleven colours hehe.
Art tcher say need to bring painting materials but i didnt even use it.
Only some people use paint.
Is was like so troublesome still need to walk out of the class and take water from the pail.
Then finish the drawing all sit there very boliao then i saw diana done with her painting then she was playing with those leftover paint.

Then i was like ewwwwww, it was like palatte then she go mix all colours until black black colour then she even go use the brush go poke the whole thing then is like black soya sauce.
Somemore she sitting beside me then i boliao keep go looking at her "black soya sauces" lol
Then recess ate beehoon with curry.
Then diana really insane.
I just said something then she go squeeze her milo on my beehoon -.-l
Then laugh laugh laugh.
Afterthat mr sami suddenly make annoucement say need to go up hall but then i was still eating -.-
So can't even go toilet but then when go up hall we 4 quickly ruch to the toilet.
THEN?
I was in the toilet doing small business then stupid vaish and diana really NOTHING BETTER TO DO.
They keep kicking my cubicle DOOR -.-
Somemore so hard then i keep hearing their laughter then i also laugh.
Then laugh laugh laugh suddenly then kick so hard then our school building is like very old then toilet also very old then the toilet door old and sucks man.
Is like they suddenly kick too hard the door OPENED, is like the lock damn lousy then made the door open, then heard vaish said "opps".
I was like LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL but ofcourse still angry la -.- .
Heng they didnt see anything cuz i quickly close, what if the whole door completely open -.-
Then after recess is literature exam, didnt study =x.
But okay, still can manage, not so difficult.
Then literature exam was like so FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.
Cuz it was like 1 hr mah then literature is like few pages only then left many time.
After that my crazy MT teacher came in to hmm how to say.
Came to be the teacher to look after us then prevent us from cheating.
Forgot how to say.
Then she came in OFCOURSE FUN LA !
I don remember mucch, but if read then not really funny, if u really saw her.
I tell u , every MT lesson u will laugh like hell then in the end u will donno wat u are laughing LOL
Then she came in LOL
Aiya first, i remembered she keep walk here walk there.
Then keep like scolding those boys thn they keep laughing then i saw her i want to laugh.
Then she donno english cuz shes from china.
Then at first she said to dono what boy "get zeerroo ah" is like in the funny tune.
Then i saw the boys at there giggling.
After that diana sit besdie me mah then we keep looking at each other then i keep controling myself not to laugh LOL.
Then she keep at there walking around.
Even lean on the door and then lean so hard got sound then i giggle again.
Then she donno english cuz shes from china.
Then at first she said to dono what boy "get zeerroo ah" is like in the funny tune.
Then i saw the boys at there giggling.
After that diana sit besdie me mah then we keep looking at each other then i keep controling myself not to laugh LOL.
Then she keep at there walking around.
Even lean on the door and then lean so hard got sound then i giggle again.
Then she lean on the door her hand and her body is like blocking the whole door.
Then i saw her face i was like LOL
After that she walked around again then she really siao one.
She even go take my literature paper then go flip pages and "read"?
Then i was like -.-
First time saw secondary teacher checking test papers.
Then i was like "you know how to read meh" ? LOL
Then i diana and me keep looking at each other then giggling.
After that she go wear jingyi's watch then is like she already weared her own watch on her hand(her watch sucks man LOL) then she wear jingyi go wear jingyi's one LOL
It was like seriously trying the watch without taking her own watch off.
Then is like wearing 2 watches on one hand.
Like last time yanjun, diana, me play the lelong lelong watches $1 each then wore 3 watches on the same hand cuz nothing better to do mah.
LOLLLL.
After that the boys ofcourse giggling lol.
Then she go and lean on the door again.
Time's up then i heard she set alarm on the watch then heard the sound "di di di di"
I was like giggling again LOL.
Then i keeep controling, SUDDENLY.
I saw her running to the teacher's table then i heard her phone ringing.
Her ringtone was like so sucks LOL.
Then i saw her digging her bag finding her phone then she run to the door and pick up the phone.
Then whole class was like giggling LOL!
Cuz u must saw then u know is was like so funnnnyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Somemore is still exam period so quite then suddenly the ringtone ....
Then i ofcouse cant control already but still controling LOL
Then we need to pass up the test papers then is was like next funnny thing really happened.

She said english LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!1
She said " from flont to back" is a very very very very weird tune.
Then whole class cant stand already then is still exam period somemore, whole class laughed LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know is rude but i really cant control.
I had so many exams from k1 to secondary 1.

This is the first time during exam period i laugh until face going to cramp LOL.
It was like so funny whole class laughed like siao LOL.
I was like laugh until want to die really LOL
After that she say we can go already then whole class stand up then drag chair then very noisy somemore whole class together go take their backs infront.
Then she keep saying "keep quiet" "keep quiet", and then doing a funny hand action while saying continuosly.
I was like ROFL!
Then after taking our things we quickly go out of the classroom then 4 of use cant control already.
We then burst out our laughter LOLOLOL along the corridoor LOLOLOLOL.
I was like laughing damn loud then like crazy woman.
Then the crazy crazy teacher suddenly standing behind me i didnt notice then she said "feng zi means crazy LOL
I was like DONT BOTHERED !
Continue laughing LOL
We then laugh until like mad dog LOL.
So many funny thing happened at the literature period LOL.
Then after school yanjun and me decided to stayback again then loiter at Westmall.
Go home boringggggg, talk to the wall.
Ok so today quite fun la.
LAST DAY OF STUPID EXAMS ! NO MORE STUDY ! YAY!
Tomorrow going out with diana, yan jun,vaish WATCH MOVIE D:
But then recently short of $ T.T
But i really want to watch 17 again.
Ok byebye ~

=)

2009-05-16T21:36:00.006+08:00

Recently there are so many examsssssssssssssssss.
Thursday just had maths paper 1 and history.
Im always wondering why this 2 subjects exam falls on the same day.
Cuz it was like history need to memorize then maths need to study + practice.
That day hmmm.. history short awnser question only know how to do one question.
Maths ok ok lo
That day damn headache ,is like first maths exam then made me very very giddy then somemore after recess is history D:
Then thursday after exam went to IMM with yanjun againnnnn.
Haiss... everytime IMM ( Friday we went again lol)

Then we even went to giant and walk around the whole entire super market.
LOL
So we saw this dolls somehow look like fishballs damn cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
So soft and smooth LOL
Then we go press press press press press D: nothing better to do LOL

(yanjun was puting the dog or something ? lol)
Then loitered until very late again
Go home boring mah.
Then friday had maths and science.
Didnt study much D:
Science duration 2hrs.
Do until head want to burst.
Then diana them said the science booklet b got what crossword puzzle but i swear i didnt had it
-.-
8 marks sial T.T
Aiya whatever lol
Then today damn boringggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.
Monday art exam need to buy brush kns zzz.
Aiya blah blah.
Lazy to write le bye bye.

----- error again zzz------

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2009-05-10T21:53:00.002+08:00

Ok going to post from friday.
Dont remember much anyway.
Friday-----
Morning woke up late, then dont know why very headache.
Then reached school quickly rush to classroom then saw they all already get ready to take pledge already.
Then dont know why that morning i damn sotong, our classroom is like if acording to index number is one side boys one side girls.
Then that mornig i suddenly forgot the seats had changed according to index i was like took out my pencil box then put my bag infront then quickly rush to my former seat then i was even finding a gap to cross to my former seat, then suddenly karen called my name then i remembered they changed seats.
Then whole class was like laughing like hell -.- i heard that even mr chay and miss fang laughed.
I was like so paiseh -.- whole class laughing at me -.-.-.-.-
Somemore my former seat is at the boys side then obviously if according to index is boys one side girls one side i still sotong sotong walk there, whole class standing get ready to take pledge somemore -.- kns LOL
Then i was the last to reach the classroom.
Sigh .... i thought i was smart then end up so sotong LOL
Then chinese paper kns.
Morning my brain havent warm up yet then have paper 1.
Too bad lor i flunk.
The informal letter i spend 1 hour to write T.T but write very short also.
Then left half hour for compo ofcourse die lor.
Then i see no time then anyhow choose a topic then anyhow write.
The topic is what - then go you home then found a bow beside the lift, you thought is a normal box but then you heard some weak whatever voices.
Then diana wrote 600 words of it.
She wrote inside the box had a dog.
I wrote inside the box had a snake . LOL
Then i wrote half of the paper only LOL
I had many ideas but no time.
Then i crazy i even intend to write the snake went into somebody's house, jump off the building etc.
LOL
But no time so i just wrote the snake got caught by the police lol.
I want to have something diffrent mah.
Everytime dog dog dog dog, cat cat cat cat not creative LOL.
Then diana say the topic said is " weak voice of whatever" , is not snake "siiiii siii....."
LOL?
Kns whatever LOL.
Then recess got 50 minutes wahhhh.
Then eat eat eat.
After that i think we went to the con course to see teacher pictures again LOL.
Then laugh laugh laugh lo.
Then yanjun at there very fedup cuz me and diana keep at there laughing for nothing and then insult teachers LOL
Then we saw our school history board then got the old shuqun building picture, then i said looked like carpark , then diana said "shuqun carpark".
Then LOL AGAIN . bo liao -.- LOL
But then the building really looked like carpark LOL.
Then laugh laugh .
Then went up for next paper again.
Next paper quite ok la.
Then school over lol.
Boring right?
Then after school diana cant stayback.
Me and yanjun stand outside the school gate for so long jus to decide where to go lol.
Just dont want to go home lol.
Then in the end went to imm.
Sit at macdonalds for so long just to chat lol.
After eat , drink coke, drink finish, pour plain water inside lol.
After that i remember we even went to giant LOL
Then so boh liao at the shop for like 40 minutes lol -.-
Saturday-----------------
Went out alone T.T
Went to jurong point then bought bdea present for yanjun , bought something cute for her D:
Then today went out with mum to lot 1 nothing to write, very boring lol.
I HATE WEEKENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dont know i live on june holidays, hope can go back school for CCA?
I think not, cuz my CCA so lousy D: go back for what lol =x
Ok byebye~

=)

2009-05-03T23:16:00.004+08:00

Ok really lazy to post recently.

Cuz my life so boring, actaully also nothing to write about it ha ha.

Ok had flu this weekend T.T

WEEKEND SOMEMORE!

Actaully my plan was to go watch the movie "17 again" that i wanted to watch so long ago.

BUT ?

FLU!

HEADACHE SOMEMORE!

Abit high fever eh.

Wah i nearly thought is swine flu kns -.-

Luckily recover already.

But my movie ... T.T

Then exam start already lo, cant watch.

Then i slack at home.

Then recently i became a fan of this korean boy band that consists 13 members.

Cool huh?

Called Super Junior<3

Cuz i saw this video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7QO6SjMsmY8&feature=PlayList&p=60311011BEC4EDBF&index=0

of their new album song called " Sorry Sorry".

So, IT WAS SO COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!

THAT SONG SO COOOOOOOOOOOOOL!

THAT BAND DAMN COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!

Ok la im weird, i like band that had many members like bbt.

But then that band so cool, i had been watching that video over 100 times.

So i started doing research about them and become their fans<3

(HanKyung)

(Leeteuk) leader of the band

This is the three guys i liked most in the band<3

Espeacially Leeteukkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

HE WAS SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

LOL

Ok im crazy LOL

Ok so they are cool really cooooooooool.

Ok bye bye LOL

=l

2009-04-30T00:10:00.003+08:00

Overslept today,
so?
Boring.
Not in a good mood today cuz thought about tomorrow need to explain + write fake parents letter again.
Dont know if will get myself into big trouble or not D:
Just now mum came back from work, at there nag nag nag shout shout, treat me like enemy zzz
Keep complain tired tired.
Ya i knew she tired but dont need to keep complain + nag right?
Give me some peace zzz
I dont want to hear this type of things again,had been hearing for so long.
Then she at there complain complain , then make me also very annoyed also.
When she everyday came back from work she will treat everybody like enemy zz,
shout instead of say.
So annoyed.
Recently had so many problems.
Starting to have financial problems, scared really will have one day even 5 cent also need to save and life will not be easy.
Stupid man keep taking money from my mum instead from his another university son, high pay every month, hated that stupid old man, felt like killing him, maybe one day, useless beast.
Change of maths teacher, stupid old fashioned, irritating face, china woman zzz, almost whole class dont understand what she was talking, instead of diagram she said"dare-gram", i think my maths will deprove? i dont even understand what she was talking, sigh, how unlucky i am ? luckily i still had tution.
How unlucky i am to have a brain problem crazy china middle aged women as mother tounge teacher instead of miss fang, so many people got in to miss fang class why not me?
How unlucky to suddenly have a china irritating act cool woman copycat, english sucks like hell, i cant even understand what shes talking + teaching teacher?
She IS a lousy teacher , she didnt know hot to teach.
MId-year exam is reaching she had not start giving us revision papers of whatever.
Life was not easy, really.
i think i will flunk my mid-year exam for sure.
My english really really lousy, i had no aim how to study it.
WHATEVER.
Life is so tired, u had to manage so many things in life.
Sucks.